Frost

I'm sorry I've caged you for so long. You deserve to not have so much responsibility heaped on you. You deserve to be out with your friends, playing. I'm sorry I tried to mold you into something you aren't and will never be. You should be able to just keep the jewelry and stuff as a hobby. Guess I'm trying to say that your cage is open, little bird. Fly free.

Dad

Dad from Frost

I feel as if you don't understand me... Like you don't know what I'm trying to tell you...
I feel as if you're trying to maneuver me into submission... Always telling me what to do...
I feel as if you depend on me for too many things... Like I'm the only child there

I sit and I watch the world pass me by... Because you keep me locked away
I sit in my cage and watch the others fly free
I watch my friends laughing and having a great time, but not me
I listen to them talk about the new clothes in style, what music they listen too, the sleepovers
I listen to them talking about the days when we would go to high school

I want to be 'normal'..
I want to be fun.. Even though I am fun
I want to be energetic... Even though I am energetic
I want to be free

I love the outdoors, but yet you keep me inside
I scream for help, but you ignore my attempts
I cry at night, but my attempts are futile

Everybody says that I have a talent
I know that I have a talent...
It's more of a hobby, than anything

I have soccer
I have Tae-Kwon-Doe
What I don't have, is my friends to hang out with

How can I tell you what I'm feeling, if you won't listen?
How can I tell you what I'm feeling, if all you say is "True"
How can I have an actual conversation without you making me feel like complete crap?

There have been times when I've thought of killing myself
There have been times when I've thought about running away
There have been times when I've just thought about never being born

Maybe then your life would be better
Maybe then you would be filled with ease on the inside
I'm not trying to be a smart alek...

Why don't you just abuse me and get it over with?
Why don't you just lock me away in the closet?
Why don't you just forget I ever existed?

I'm nothing more than a caged bird and I'm only 10 years old.
I'm nothing more than a prisoner in my own 'home'
I'm nothing more than a tool for you to use
I'm nothing more than a toy.

My words have no effect on you
My feelings don't mean anything to you
Maybe I'll just go away.

I haven't complained
I've been a good girl
I've been a good daughter

I should try harder
I should work harder
I should make myself vomit
Maybe then, I'd look pretty

-- Frost

Guys

Dave, Lev, Drew, Aza, Clint, Toby and Gor,

You guys don't need a mate who goes all emo after she goes feral on her alpha. I know you're all gonna argue, say that you love me no matter what, that I probably had good reason for it... But I don't deserve it, and I didn't. I'm just a stupid fucking loser. You deserve a hell of a lot better than that. You always will.

I'm sorry,
Kat

Frost

Babygirl,
I gained everything I ever wanted the day you were born. Everything else is icing on the cake. I know I'm gone far too much of the time, but knowing I have you to come home to.. Makes it easier to deal with.
Your gift... I absolutely love it, babygirl. I really do. It's easily the best one I've gotten.

Love,
Dad

Dad

Dad,

What do you get a man who has everything he wants? Who has money, fancy clothes, fancy cars...How can you get something? I wanted my gift to be unique... Something that came from the heart...

I love you, daddy... You're always there for me when I need it. You hold me in your arms and I know that I'll be safe forever. Even if we're just going for a run in our lion forms... I'll always be safe around you. I know that you're super protective of me and that I'm "daddy's little girl". I try not to be a bother on you... To ask you to buy me a lot of stuff or to take me places when I can take the city bus or ride my bike. It's hard when you're gone--but I was there on the 1000 episode of RAW and you looked so happy to be with Shawn and the other members of DX. I had on my DX shirt and gear... I hope that you have a good 43rd (if you switch the numbers around, you'd be 34 again!)-- birthday.

Love,
Frost

Frost

BabyGirl,
       I don't like being gone so much of the time... Not when I'm missing the hell out of you. You're always going to be my babygirl, Frost. I know there's always going to be father-daughter dances, and I'll be damn sure to make it to more of them. And more of your soccer games, and TKD practices. As for dates and potential boyfriends... They'll never be quite good enough. Not for you.
      You're you. That's all I want and love in you. And you most definitely aren't a freak, nor will you ever be. If anyone tells you otherwise, screw 'em. They don't know you. To me, you will always be cool.

I love you always, babygirl.

Love,
Dad

Dad from Frost

You're gone a lot of the time, so I guess I don't have any room to complain... You're my father... I know that you love me. But if I get close to you, then you're just going to be gone... It's hard... Watching you on the TV...

There's always going to be father/daughter dances... There's going to be plenty of time for you to scare away my dates or my potential boyfriend... I don't know what to tell you, daddy. I know you miss me when you're not at home... You're going to walk me down the aisle someday when I get married...

I know I'm only 10... I shouldn't have much to worry about, right? I should be out playing with my friends, talking with boys, whining that I don't have what "the other girls have". But honestly? I don't want what the other girls have... Not until I'm 16. I don't want a cell phone yet...I'm happy without an Ipod or MP3... Or having all the name brand jeans (Aunt Cherry can make those)...

Maybe I do have a talent with making jewelry, drawing, and art... Maybe I am smart for my age. Does it make me a "freak"? Sure as heck does. Maybe I like all those video games. Maybe I like going hunting. Maybe I like Pokemon and trading cards. Does that make me a nerd? Heck. Yes. Do I like playing MMORPG games online and doing graphic design? Yeah, I do. Just because I have talent...it doesn't make me special. Does it make me unique? Maybe. Mom is so much better at doing everything. She was better at drawing and everything that I'm doing now when she was 7 years old. Mom has amazing skills... I'm not trying to be like her.

Do I have a (un)healthy obsession with Peace signs for my bedroom with soccer? Nah. Never.
Do I have a healthy obsession with Tinkerbell and Mickie Mouse for my bathroom? Nah.

Do I mind babysitting Jayden or Ayva? No, I don't. I don't whine or complain because (not only does mom scare me on that), but I see no point. I see no point in arguing about doing chores when I like doing them. It gives me something to do. (Coming from a 10 year old...). Do I care I only get paid 10$ allowance? No.

I'm not spoiled. I'm not popular at school like Liam is... I play soccer and I do things that I enjoy. Maybe... I let Alex influence me a little... I still do commissions for him.
Unlike other kids, I actually think my parents are cool and I enjoy hanging out with them

I love you, daddy,
Frost