Mark

I don't know what to say to you without it sounding like some excuse or something you haven't heard before.

Why are you even still with me?

I guess I'm more of a handful then anybody'd want me too be...

I just wanna close my eyes and never open them again. I wanna lay my body down and never get up.

I don't know what you want me to say because apparently I say the wrong things.

All I'm saying is that I'm constantly pushing you away because I feel fucking smothered and unsatisfyed and I push people away. You shouldn't have to deal with that because you should find somebody that's your other half. Somebody that's not me because I'm not going to ever be good enough.

You say you can handle my faults. You can help me through my worst, but can you? I'm still waiting for you to break up with me. I'm obviously accusing you of shit that's not happening and it's pissing you off and everybody around me too.

I guess that's all...

Sam