Sunday, December 30, 2012

Reag

Reagan
By: Rio

                You know what I don’t find fair? My twin sister, Riley, is off in Chicago at some writing school while I’m stuck here in Texas. Riley hates school; she was pulling a C/D grade average and I’m pulling an A average. She got detention almost all the time. We’re 17 and when mom found out Riley was sending away a money order to the board of education, she got angry. She told her that she couldn’t go and it went on for weeks (Trust me; you do NOT want to get into an argument with our mother. Why? Because she’ll win) Anyway… Mom finally let her go after packing her stuff up. Now, I’m here in an empty room by myself and it sucks. We took an English test before break and I got a D on it.  Mom wasn’t happy about it and my dad said that I had potential. If I had potential, then why isn’t it ME in a writing school?
                I’m a junior in high school and I have a 4.0GPA. I’m in mostly AP classes and I have friends. I hang out at the mall and go out on dates. Well, I used to until I met Rey (yes, wrestler Rey Mysterio). I still hang out at the mall and hang out with friends, but I don’t go out on dates (Well…Sometimes I do). I have short blonde hair and blue eyes. I miss my sister, but I’m slightly jealous of her too. Last I heard from her, she was doing really well. Her paper got published in the school journal all because she’s friends with the editor (That, and Riley takes after our mother when it comes to writing). Riley used to make her own, bloody, gory comic books. She drew and wrote it out herself. Oh. And she loves to play sports. Riley isn’t the “girly girl” kind of person. She’s a tom boy. Loves to play basketball and football and baseball… Me? I’m on the basketball team at school. I have a job at Starbucks.
                It’s empty without Riley around… Trust me, I have self-esteem. I have plenty of it. I just wish…that I too could be something. Everybody says that I have potential, but do I? I want to be a doctor. I love helping people and I do a lot of stuff at the hospital. My sister, Lili, is a cardiothoracic surgeon at Methodist Hospital in Houston. I want to work with kids, maybe at Saint Jude’s Hospital or something. Jinny is currently in medical school and she says that it’s hard and expensive. Lili and mom say the same thing. My mom always says find something that YOU’RE interested in doing… Not what everybody else is doing. Make your own path in life and enjoy living it. Oh, I try…
                I don’t know what I want anymore. I’m tired all the time; I work out three times a week (Monday, Wednesday, and Friday). I’m on the basketball team, I’m on the honor roll, I have a job… I pay insurance, my car payment, my cellphone bill, my credit card bill (Always, after every purchase). I help out with the younger kids around the house… Is this what my life is going to become? Over the summer, I spent it mostly in England, Spain, and Rome, Scotland). For part of my winter, I spent it in Egypt, doing an archeological dig. My brother, Degas, loved doing archeological digs in Egypt. He still goes to Egypt and other places every summer to do them. I decided to chop off my hair a good bit because I was taking too long in the shower and the drain kept getting plugged up with my hair (That’s disgusting to clean out, by the way!).
Well, my English teacher wants us to write a story about our lives. It can be fictional (not real), non-fiction (Real), or whatever we want, as long as its school appropriate. So, I’ll give it a try. I moved my laptop onto my lap and began typing.
The loud shrill of the alarm was the only sound in the otherwise peacefulness of her room. Reagan’s hand shot out to stop the annoying noise and curled deeper into her blankets. The body next to her shifted and pulled her closer.
“You need to get up, mi amor” the deep Mexican accent spoke in the darkness.
“I know…” She said, voice husky from sleep
                Arousing from her sleep, Reagan did her morning routine, which included showering, brushing her teeth, and getting dressed. Once she finished that, she grabbed her bag and headed downstairs for breakfast. Once there, she found her little brother, Jeremy already at the table, same with their parents.
                “Hi, Reag!” Jeremy greeted happily as he ate his eggs
                “Hi, Jer!” She replied just as happily, sitting next to him as she grabbed some fruit and toast.
                Finishing breakfast, Reagan made her way to her blue Dodge Charger. She bought it last year for her birthday after she saved up her money. Making her way to school, she picked up her two best friends, Billy (She’s a girl), and Joel (Also a girl). Billy plays on the softball team and Joel is on the volleyball team.
                Once they arrived at school, Reagan parked and they all headed inside. The halls were bustling with kids as they made their way to their lockers.
                “Did you hear that Ashleigh got suspended because she flashed the entire cafeteria?” Joel mentioned as they shook their heads.
                “How’d that happen?” Billy asked as Joel laughed
                “Somebody spilt spaghetti on the cafeteria floor and she slipped”
Reagan, grabbing her AP Trigonometry book and binder, shook her head.
“Well, that’s good, I suppose”
“What’s wrong, Reag?” Billy asked as she sighed
“Nothin’, Bill… Really” She said, smiling.
After arriving in her math class, Reagan took her seat and took out her homework. With her legs crossed, she took out her phone and started texting Riley. Soon enough, class had started.

                

Friday, December 21, 2012

Athena


Name: Athena M. Calaway
Grade: 9

1.       Honors English                      Mr. Frank
2.       Algebra 2                               Mrs. Thompson
3.       Pre-AP Biology                      Mr. Redd
4.       Lunch                              
5.       Pre-AP Spanish                     Mrs. Lopez
6.       American History                 Mr. French
7.       Gym                                        Mr. Snow
8.       Drawing I                               Mrs. Buttons
9.       Band                                       Mr. Chord

School Newspaper:  Book Reviewer and/or sports editor
Clubs: Debate, Red Cross, Knowledge Bowl, Photography, Graphic Design
Stage Crew member for Theatre
        Is a member of Mock trial

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Krissy

I don't know why it's happening, but I'll help you any way I can, babygirl. I don't hate you.
Daddy

No Title


What’s happening to me?
Why is this feeling here?
Why won’t it go away?
I love you more than I should…
Please…help me…
Daddy, please!
I don’t want you to hate me…
I want to be normal again..
Help me…

Kris

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Krissy

Babygirl,
       You aren't a rotten daughter. Nor will you ever be. And I don't want you to go anywhere else... I'd miss you so much, baby... I'd miss seeing your smile, hearing your laughter... Miss how you snuggle into me when we're watching cartoons... Miss singing to you.
       I would never hate you, Krissy. I love you more than words can say properly.
       CJ will NEVER replace you. You're my special little girl, and you always will be. Nothing will ever change that. Not even new siblings.
Daddy

Clint


Daddy,
(Clint, I’m writing this as Krissy is telling me what to write—Sam)

                I’m sorry I’m such a rotten daughter… I’ll go to a different family if you want… Please don’t hate me… I love you… I know that CJ isn’t going away… Are you replacing me?

Kris

Krissy

Krissy,
       You're still my favorite, Krissy. You always will be.
       I'm sorry for being a lousey dad.
Daddy

Daddy (Clint)


Daddy,

                I used to be your favorite… You used to go and play in the snow with me… Used to watch cartoons with me. You missed story time at school… I hate CJ. I wish he was never born!
                You have another son now, so why do you need me? Maybe I’ll go live with gramma… You never spend time with me no more… Go play with your son.

Krissy

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Sam

Best friends. You're the only one I really trust to bitch about to my dad and share the crap he pulls!

K

Hm, Gee... Facebook friends? I don't know. I don't even know what we are. Best friends as close as sisters? Friends? God knows how stressed out I am.


Sam

Sam. You don't suck. You aren't annoying. I like you just the way you are! Besides, who else gets my brand of insanity?
Kat
I guess I'll just leave. Sorry for wasting your time. You can find better friends than me anyway. What does it matter anyway? I'm annoying, I suck, etc.

Sam

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       I'm very glad she does. I try to make them as special as I can. And I'm glad I have you, too. I love you so much, baby...
       God, is she ever... I be happy if you did. And she'd love learning from you. I know you can make it fun for her.
       I know! She's such a cutie, too! I'm glad they're trying. They really seem like they love each other so much when they aren't fighting. And Justice... God... So adorable! Jinny... She loves it a lot, too. And Steve seems so good with their kids.
       They both are! Hell, I don't see how even Kat and Loki keep up with them when they watch them both! It's like they feed off each other's energy!
       I always will, Adri. You have my word.
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Ben

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Ben


Ben,

                Mica told me this morning that you’re the best daddy in the whole world. She says that she loves you a lot and she understands and knows that you work a lot to try and support her. She says that she cherishes the time you both have. She also says that she’s really glad that you found someone you can love.
                God… She’s growing up so fast. Soon, she’ll be in the 1st grade—she asked me if I would homeschool her now that I’m not in college anymore. The president of the university said that I needed to take my vacation time. I told her I’d talk to you about it.
                Brook is growing too. I can’t believe she’s two already! Amber is doing a lot better now. Little Justice is growing up a lot and she and Justin are really trying to make it work. Jinny is in medical school—studying away and staying up all night.
                Dear. God. Jeremy is a ball of energy. Between him and Michael, I don’t know what to tell you. But Aunt Sam has the energy to keep up with both of them!
                Keep loving me, Ben. I’ll love you and Mica forever.

Love,
Adri

Monday, November 26, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       She is! especially when she's interested in something and really takes a liking to it!
       I don't blame you. I had a thing for your voice as soon as I met you. How your accent got more noticable when you get into something you enjoy, how it thickens when we're lovin' on each other... And I'm glad she didn't. Would've been kind of hard to explain what we were doin'.
       Heck naw! They're fun to be around. And I'm glad they took a liking to you as much as I did. Same with Mitchell and Gavin.
       Oh, I don't intend to!
       I know! I love her for that.
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Ben

Ben


Ben,

                I would be honored to be Mica’s mommy. I love her so much. She’s fun to be around! The things she comes up with sometimes!
                I’ve loved you since we first met also. I have a thing for accents, too. Especially last night… how husky your voice got, how thick your accent got… Mica didn’t even wake up to see what all the screaming was about!
                Bella and Carrie had bets over to see how long it would take us to get together. Carrie won the bet. Can’t help but love them, right?
                Brad and Rachel won’t be back bothering us. I told my Aunt Sam what was going on and she made them…”Disappear.” Word of advice, NEVER make my Aunt Sam pissed off. Ever.
                Mica likes the idea of coming to school with me. She said with you working nights, it gives us a chance to have “girl time” as she put it. She’s really something else, Ben. She’s very special and very smart.
Love,
Adri 

Adri

Adri,
       Thank you. She is, isn't she? She loves learning, too.
       She is, and I don't blame her. She knows we like each other... And she loves you. She wants you to be her mommy so much.
       I don't blame you on her. She's no good for her. They only good that came from that relationship is Mica.
       I love you too, Adri. Have since we first met.
       I don't mind if you do. I'd rather have you sit her too. She loves you so much.
       So do I, Adri. And I don't mind if you raid my closet. I've noticed you eyeing it. I'm glad they don't mind, and that they love Mica.
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Ben

Ben


Ben,
               
                You have the most cutest and polite little girl. Everybody can see that she’s the apple in your eye. She’s a very curious little one, too.
                She’s trying so hard to get us together. When’s her birthday? She called me mommy last night. I was putting her to bed and she said, “Nini, mommy. I wove you!” I swore I got a tear in my eye.
                I hope that bitch of an ex-wife never comes back. That might sound bad, but I don’t want to see you or Mica hurt… especially Mica.
                I love you, Ben. Even if you don’t love me back (which we all know you do).
                I want to see you and Mica happy. They have a day care at the college, so if you have to work a day shift or something, I can take her with me. She said that she doesn’t want anybody else to babysit her.
                I love being around you. You’re funny and know how to have a good time. Not to mention, I want to raid your closet. Even though I’m with Keith and Barney, I want us to be a couple. They have no problem with you and they love Mica.
Love,
Adri

Adri

Baby,
       That's something we never understood either. Ben's a good father to his babygirl. You can hear how much he loves her whenever he talks about her And I'm glad he trusts you to take care of her. He had a few babysitters that didn't like how long he worked some nights, or just babysat her for the money so they could get drugs. Not the best sitters for her.
       So do we. He deserves it after all the shit he and Mica've been through. And I'm glad she likes you. She seems to think of you as her adopted mommy.
       I know... We were worried as hell...
       Mhm. The lounge is more for just relaxing.
       I don't blame you, baby. Maybe we should talk about letting them teach you some things. With conditions of course.
Love,
Keith and Barney

Keith/Barney


Keith/Barney,

                I’m not worried. Mica is Ben’s life. Ever since his bitch of a wife left him with their infant daughter—claiming that she wasn’t ready to be a mother yet. Which is total bullshit. How could anybody just…abandon that sweet little girl? Oh yeah, and Ben too. ;P
                I really hope that Ben find somebody he really likes. Mica will always be his first priority. He’s asked me to babysit a lot more now that I’m out of school and I happily accepted. His daughter and I get along very well.
                It was a close call with our own child… If I would’ve lost our child…I don’t know what I would’ve done… Probably tried to kill myself.
                Of course, having sex in the lounge of the club is against policy, but having sex in the main room is fine. I’ve seen Gavin take Bella against the pool table before. Same with others, screwing on tables, etc.
                Bella and Carrie keep asking me to join them with Mitchell and Gavin. I told them that I don’t share my masters… But I can’t help but be curious as to what Gavin and Mitchell know…

Love,
Adri

Adri

Adri,
      I agree, baby. And I'm glad you did. It brightens the place up so much. Wonder what else we forgot about stashing away... I gotta explore.
       I don't blame him. And his daughter's cute, too. She's his life outside of the club. I'm glad she likes you so much.
       By everyone at the club, especially. I know... You act so much more mature than your age. So are we, baby.
       just trying to pace them out so we don't freak you out a lot.
       They accept us because they like all of us, baby. They don't want to see us in trouble, so don't worry about them reporting us.
Love,
Barney and Keith

Keith/Barney


Keith/Barney,

                Nobody should be alone for Christmas… I went exploring in the club and found a box of forgotten Christmas decorations. I’m glad that they all like it.
                I know… Ben… He likes the Christmas decorations. We’ve had coffee a few times since you’ve brought me to the club. I’ve met his daughter too—Mica. She’s the cutest little 2 year old! Curly blonde hair and she’s got Ben’s eyes and smile. She likes me; Ben asked me to baby sit for him while he did his shift at the club.
                I know. Our baby is going to be very well loved… I feel like I should be 16 or something…Not 14. I have an IQ of 187. Of course I’ll be happy out of school!
                I know that you both have a lot more to teach me about the BDSM lifestyle. I know that you’ve both had fantasies about what you’d like to do to me… What are you waiting for? Me to get older? 
                I’m just worried that you both could go to jail… Everybody at the club seems cool about us…

Love,
Adri

Adri

Adri,
       I can't wait til our baby's born! The little one is going to be very well loved by all of us. And very well protected.
       I love how comfortable you've made the condo and club. The members have already commented on how much more time they've spent out talking to each other since you've decorated for Christmas instead of just in the rooms. They like that they're getting to really know the other masters and pets much better now. Even Ben's noticed that he's had to break up fewer fights and had fewer rowdy members to escort out. And the members are planning a club-wide Christmas party, too.
       Think you'll be happier out of school?
        Love,
Keith and Barney

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       It's not your fault. We aren't doing enough to keep you aroused. And I'm sorry for being so damn vanilla.
 Keith and Barney

Guys

Maybe it's me... I just... I can't stay aroused...
It's not your fault...
I thought that it would be exciting... To have masters... But it's just...boring... I look at how Gavin/Bella and Carrie/Mitchell are... I want that...
I heard the rumors about you guys... But then when you get to me... You're both just...boring and vanilla... What happened?

Maybe you should just take the collar off and I'll move back to the ranch... Or maybe I'll move to another country...


Adri

Friday, November 23, 2012

Adri

Adri,
         I'm glad, baby. I'm happier now with you. I'm not worried, baby. I love seeing you so happy with us both.
       Then move in with Keith and me. I'd love it if you did, Adri. I've been waiting for you to ask.
    I'm glad you like your collar. I though of you when I saw it. I'm glad most people don't recognize it for what it is.
    They like you for who you are, how caring you are, how loving. They respond to that. They like it. And they like how homey you've made the club, how much more cheerful.
Love,
Keith and Barney

Barney/Keith


Barney/Keith,

                I feel more…complete; I feel like I’m not missing another part of me. I finally feel…happy. Don’t get me wrong, Barney. I was happy before, but now… I’m just…MORE happy.
                I can’t live at the ranch anymore… All my stuff will still be there, Aunt Sam and Uncle Mark said I could keep it in the bedroom that I’ve been using.
                I like my collar… It sparkles… I’ve only had it on for what… a day or two? It feels weird when I take it off. A lot of people think it’s just a choker (Which was what I was hoping they would go for). I got a lot of complements on it.
                I’ve talked with a few members of the club and they all seem really nice. I talked with a few of the female members, too. They didn’t mind answering my questions…in fact; they seemed to enjoy it as their masters watched on happily.
                I want to move in with you, Keith… The ranch… I don’t feel comfortable there… But I need to have Barney with me…

Adri

Adri

Adri,
       It wasnt' all the time. We got our fair share of rejection, and got into arguements when one of us wanted to share and the other didn't. When you came into our lives, you were the only one we agreed 100% completely on. To us you are special, you are precious, you are a gift. You always will be. Let us drive your nightmares away, keep you safe from the jackasses who want to hurt you. We'll do anything we can to make sure you stay safe, Adri.
       We'll ease you into it. We'll make sure you're comfortable with what we do every step of the way, even when it means denying ourselves something we like.
       I feel the same way when you're not here. I feel like something's missing every time you leave. And Sty... Can kiss my ass if she has a problem with us. She's too damn protective, anyway.
       We found our somebody better in you, baby. We like you for who you are, damage and all.
       Adri, we'll go at the pace you want. Just know, we love you. We respect you. We won't stop, no matter what.
Keith and Barney

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Keith/Barney



                It must be so easy for you both… To get any woman you want… Having to share them… Then you come across me… I’m not special; I’m not precious; I’m not a gift; I’m just a thing to be used and thrown away… I keep having nightmares about the rape… considering it nearly happened again… I want too… I want to wear the collar…so bad… But my nightmares keep my…”desires” at bay… I get scared… I hate that…
                I know that you and Barney will take care of me… I know how you both share your females… I know how kinky you both can get… How can I handle you two if I can barely handle real sex? Ask Barney what we’ve done… Hell, I couldn’t even take all of him when I gave him a blow job…
                You know that I love Barney… But I feel as if a part of me is…Missing when you’re not around. I really don’t give two craps if Sty hates you or not. She’s going to have to deal with it or I’m moving out of the ranch.
                I’m trying to put my fears and nightmares behind me… But I’m always second guessing myself… You and Barney both could find somebody better…Hell, you’ve got a club full of women who would happily do what you say… Along with their masters…
                I don’t trust very easy… It took me a hella long time for me to even trust Barney… I need to go slow… But at the same time… I want you and Barney to show me things…

Adri

Adri

Adri,
       I don't blame them for being leery of me just because of the rumors. But I'd never hurt you, shelve you or let someone els fuck you in the unlikely case I grew tired of you.
       I can see how much you and Barney love each other, how much you like being around each other, how much he comforts you on the bad days, even when you don't want to admit it. You... Bring out the caring dominate part of me, Adri. Do I care that you're inexperienced? No. Means I get to explore things I'd almost forgotten about as I show you stuff. But I will never force you into something you aren't comfortable with. I like rough sex sometimes, but never rape. I'm willing to help you with the bad days and share your good days with you.
       I will never use you, baby. You're too precious a gift to abuse like that. Don't worry about deciding about us right away. Take thetime you need. And I don't mind you keeping the bond with Barney. He's your safety, your mate, your lover.
Keith

Keith


Keith,

                I’ve heard all the rumors about you. Barney and Sty have warned me about you… How you’ll just hurt me… I have to admit… The idea of being your ‘pet’ thrills me… At the same time, though, being somebody that you could just…shelf or let somebody else handle when you get tired of me… That part unnerves me…
                I’m totally and completely in love with Barney… but at the same time… I feel something towards you too… Maybe it’s the thrill of having you are dominating… Having you dominate me… But you’ve heard what happened to me… How I have my good days and how I have my bad days… How inexperienced I am…
                I want you and Barney both… But I refuse to be a toy for you to use. I love how you dominated me… But not too much that it made me uncomfortable… I want you to teach me more… A part of me wants to be drawn into your BDSM world… But a part of me wants to stay in my safe place with Barney…Where he takes it slow…

Adri

Monday, November 19, 2012

Olivia

Olivia,
       Would you want to? We aren't going to blame you one bit if you do.
       Let us do more of the housework, Olivia. Don't fight us so much about it! We've reduced our working hours so we can be home more and take care of you and Theo both. We don't expect you to over stress yourself again.
       No, you weren't. We never wanted that for you. Did that get messed up? Yes. But it's going to be fixed, damnit.
       Let us take care of you, Olivia. Please.
Mom and Dad

Mom and dad


Mom and Dad,
                I got offered to live in Louisiana… Gramma offered. She said, “A girl like you would do with some Southern love. We got plenty of it!”
                I’m 14 years old… Yet, I have to take care of Theo, myself, school, my job, keeping the house clean, cooking, laundry… The only part you two do is paying the bills. I’m tired of it. I want some “me” time. I want time to hang out with Becki.
                Was I born so I could do all the work at home? Yes, I understand that you both work for SHEILD and that dad is the director…
                I’m just…I’m done. I’m stressed…My body cannot handle the stress anymore… I cry myself to sleep sometimes.


Olivia

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Sam

Darlin',
       I'm doing good. I'm glad our family's back together. Feels more like home with everyone here.
       He was. Hm... I'm grateful to have you as my wife... Glad our kids are all healthy... Grateful our pack is still holding strong.
       Mmm, I'm glad you enjoyed it, darlin'. It's always worth the wait.
       He does. But he's got your laugh and smile. Clint told me... He's been sticking closer than ever to her, just in case she needs him. I really don't blame him, either.
      

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Mark


Mark,
                How are you, my darling? I’m doing quite well. The entire clan is together again!
                I saw how you got when that guy came up to me and Jeremy when we were out grocery shopping… That guy was a fucking creeper! What 3 things that you’re grateful for? (You can give more if you want, even though I have a faint idea).
                I love it when you got me last night. We haven’t had sex in a while. This quarter has been hectic and busy. Thank you for being patient! J
                God, Jeremy looks just like the both of us. He has your eyes and nose, and a few of Marcus’s features. He’s growin’ like a weed, too. Speaking of, have you seen how much Krissy and Athena have grown?! Krissy is one and Athena is two! So many grandbabies… But they are so worth it! I get to spoil them rotten! Mwahaha! We almost lost Piper, baby… When she gave birth to Katie… Almost…
                I wish that it would snow… Maybe at the ranch it’ll start snowing soon. *pout*
I love you always and forever,
Sam

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Kat


Kat,

                Last night was bad; I’m so sick of all the Nate drama. That brat can’t learn to keep his hands to himself. Hell, some of the younger kids at the ranch have watched him and they’re better than he is!!!
                I’m not going to keep you from your game on Facebook. You like it.       
                I like talking to you on IM… It’s just I sit there waiting and waiting for you to respond (BRB’s don’t count).
                I’m sick of being stressed; I’m sick of being sick…
                Thanksgiving is next week. What are your plans? I’m helping mom make the turkey and all the trimmings—while I get the pie. I will be damned if that snot nosed brat will ruin my Thanksgiving. You’ll see a mushroom cloud if he fucks up Christmas! Mom and I are going to get the turkey tomorrow.
                School is going okay. Finals are Dec 10-12 and then I’m on break from Dec 12-Jan 2nd. I can’t believe it’s almost 2013! I’ll be 20 soon! Holy shit!
                How have you been? How’s the weather? I’m excited because everybody is coming back to the ranch for Thanksgiving! Yay!

Sam

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       I'm not gonna let the hormones get in the way of us talking. We need to, without the BS that usually pops up.
       I'm not angry at her for it. I'm glad she's there when I can't be. And honestly? I'd rather be there right now. Yeah, I know Toby and Amber want me with them too, but it's driving me nuts, being torn in two between you and the ranch and them at home.
       I'm not gonna ask or demand that you do. Yes, I love him, but I don't completely trust him, and he knows it. Oscar... Can do what he wants where Loki is concerned, as long as he knows Loki's history.
       The rape was not your fault. If anyone's to blame, it's me for makin' Dave late. You are always going to be worth it, Adri, no matter what. We will always love you. And I'm glad you're not so skinny. You will always be worth the time I spend withyou, and the money I spend to help.
       I miss you too, baby...
       I will.
Mom

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Mom (Kat)


Mom,

                I guess I’ll write you a letter instead of telling you. To “clear the air” as people would call it; I’m hesitant in telling you anything because of how you’ve responded in the past—and your pregnancy hormones would only make it worse (I think).
                Yes, I know that you love me and you won’t stop. Ever since you’ve moved off the ranch, it’s been different. You’re no longer greeting me a good morning or having my favorite breakfast waiting for me when I leave for school… I guess Aunt Sam’s been there, caring for me (don’t get angry at her).
                I don’t trust Loki. Period. I know that you love him and that you’re carrying his child now—but that doesn’t mean that I have to like him. Congratulations to Oscar for liking and trusting him.
                Maybe it’s the rape that did all this too me. It’s nobody’s fault but my own. I hate having you spend your money on stupid ol’ me when it could be used for something more important—something better. I’m still too skinny, but I don’t look like pure skin and bones. I can fit into sizes 6-10, extra small-medium (I can fit into larger shirts…).
                Do I hate you? No, I don’t. You gave me life… I just wish that you were around more. I can’t talk to you about…girly things. Why? Because you’re my mother… I’m not complaining. I just…kinda miss you.
                Tell Amber and Toby that Barney and I say hello. School is fine.
Adri

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Phil


Dad,

                I know that you deserve to be happy… To have someone to marry or something… I’m not saying that I disapprove of Kat… I just think it’d be better if I went back to England… From what I’ve seen, Kat is really nice and cool… But you’d spend all your time with her.
                America was nice…Really. I just got here and starting to know you… But I can’t feel like I’m losing you at the same time… I guess that’s just me.
                I guess I don’t know what else to say.

Becki

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Adri

Baby,
       I'm never leaving you, baby. I love you entirely, and I love how close we are. I love hearing your laughter brightening the house again. The fit... It really was bad. I hated seeing you hurting yourself because of it.
       Of course I'll happily share a room with you. And I like that feeling. I like knowing I can talk to you.
       I know, baby. I've talked to him and the others in the pack.
       I. Love. You. I always will. I'll teach you what I know. But I teach better by showing.
Love always,
Barney

Barn


Barney,

                As we grow closer together, I’m starting to realize that you’re not going away…haha… You make me laugh again… That fit…*sighs* it was really bad… I hate when I get like that…How I bite and claw and kick… Wanting to tear my hair out…
                I was thinking… Maybe we could share a room? We’re getting closer everyday… I feel like…I’ve known you forever. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy… I’m just 14…
                I really am a fun person… Honest… Ask Oscar…
                I said it. The three words. I’m hoping you’ll teach me more about sex, Barney… I know you’ll be a good teacher.
Love,
Adri

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Mom


Mom,

                You promised me you wouldn’t go emo over me anymore! You promised. I guess I’m nothing but a screw up. Oscar says I should be put in a mental institution… Barney should just leave the pack so he never has to see me again…
                I hate who I am. I hate the fact that I was raped. I hate that I can’t be normal anymore…No matter how hard I try. I hate that I can’t fit into my own skin comfortably anymore. Maybe I should just go away and never come back.
                Maybe I should gain a bunch of weight so that nobody would even look twice at me. Maybe I should go bald… I hate myself. Maybe I should force myself to throw up and look unattractive.
Adri

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       I'm damn glad it's off your shoulders. It was driving me nuts seeing you deny yourself what we have.
       I know we're all happier with you hanging out with us more. It's good to see you starting to heal more. I'm happy to see you doing more of what you love.
       I don't blame you for seeing her. Think she can help you pretty well, too. And thank God for Aunt Sam, huh? I don't mind about the looking skinny... As long as I have you to love, I don't care about appearances.
       So am I, Adri. You are definitely worth working through the pain for. I never stopped loving you because I know how strong you are, even when you retreated.
       I miss you when you're at school... Or practice... Or when Fury has me running a mission. But I wouldn't trade what we've built for anything. I'm glad you're my mate, my lover, my everything. And I'm glad to be stuck with you, 'cause you're just as stuck with me, baby. Always, forever and into eternity.
      That sounds like a damn good plan, because I don't plan on ever leaving your side. Ever.
Love,
Barney

Monday, October 29, 2012

Barney


Barney,

                I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I guess denying the bond I have with you…Denying how deeply I love and need you, I guess it was seriously driving me batty.
                With your help, I’m starting to feel like my old self again. I’m not in my room as much anymore… I’m out hanging with Oscar—just like I used too. My dad’s practically giggling because I’m talking to him again. Mom’s not worried anymore, either.
                I’m starting to slowly gain back all the weight I’ve lost since the rape. Aunt Sam says that I’ll always look skinny and that I screwed up my metabolism. I’ve been secretly seeing a female therapist, by recommendation of Aunt Sam (both are good friends) and she put me on anxiety pills.
                When you first told me that you loved me, I seriously wanted to believe you. But something inside me told me not too. Well, that voice went away forever. You’ve been really patient with me, Barney… I’m surprised that you didn’t get up and leave forever.
                You make going through the day a little easier. You make getting out of bed a little less hard in the morning. I miss you when you’re not around me. You’re always on my mind. You’re stuck with me, Barney. Forever, Always and into eternity;
                We’ll take it a day at a time, okay? I’m not perfect and can’t be fixed overnight—no matter how much duct tape or bubble gum you use. Just stay by my side, please? I don’t think I can do this by myself anymore.
Love,
Adri

Adri

Adri,
       I hate knowing how much you're hurting when you shove me away. I hate knowing that you're too stubborn to accept what we've got... I love seeing your smile, hearing your laugh... Most of all, I'm glad you're starting to come back out of the shadows.
       I hate leavig you to the pills when you tell me to leave... I hate that the loneliness encroaches on you again... But I'll be damned if you keep pushing me away anymore. I know that deep down, you know you need me as much as I need you. I'll be damned if we lose each other over our own insecurities.
      I hope you find your happiness too... I want to see you enjoying life, spending more time with your twin, hang with friends...I want to know more about you, know we're truly right for each other.
       So do I, Adri... Every day.
       You know damn well that I'll always let you have your space and alone time. I want to see who you'll be, Adri... And the healing can't come soon enough...
Barney

Barney


Barney,

                Every time I tell you to leave, it hurts me more than you’ll know. You’ve made me laugh again…You’ve made me smile again… I can feel the loneliness starting to ease inside my soul as the warmth that was lost is beginning to come back.
                I get scared of that… Because no matter how much I wanna let myself go and be free, something always restrains me…You keep the nightmares away… Yes, I get frustrated when you question me during sex…Or you’re not doing something that I like fast enough… I tell you to get the hell off me and when you slam out… It hurts… I take a handful of sleeping pills to try to forget and try to ease the loneliness…
                I just wanna be happy again…I wanna be the girl who didn’t get frustrated or angry at the little things… The type of girl who once had friends at school… the girl who hung out with her twin and went to the movies or played video games with him…
                I wish I didn’t get raped…Or when I wore that dress…I almost got raped again… I’m trying to move on… I really am… I’m trying not to let the rape control my life…
                I like my space… I like my “me” time… I like being up in my room by myself with a good book… Just the idea of someone moving in on me… I get panic or anxiety attacks and I hate them… I weigh 110 pounds right now… I used to weigh 115 or 120… I’m not fat and I’m not over weight… I can fit into a size 13 jean and an XS shirt (If I wanted).
                I want a lot of things… I wanna be the girl who spoke her mind… To be able to recite anything of Shakespeare’s…whether it be his sonnets or plays… I knew it all.
                What am I know? I’m a shell of my former self. I’m trying to get back out there. I’m sick of taking it a day at a time.
Adri 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Adri

Baby,
       I know you don't mean to push me away. I get that you're too used to having to keep your walls up to protect yourself. But you don't have to worry about that with me. I'll do everything in my power to keep you safe. I do have an interest in you. Why, I don't know, but I know I like you for who you are, even when you push me away.
       You'll always find safety with me. You don't have to hide when you're with me, either. I'd like to get to know you better if you want to let me.
       I'll never break your heart. I'd hate to leave you in that much pain, that much sorrow... I don't want to leave that kind of scarring on you. You don't deserve that kind of shit.
Barney

Barn


Barney,

                I don’t mean to push you away. I want you to stay by me and lay with me…To hold me throughout the night… I’m tired of having to rely on those sleeping pills… I’m not as depressed as I was before since you’ve started to talk to me… I know I’m getting my hopes up when you say you have an interest in me… Besides, what would you have an interest in a 14 year old girl for?
                I prefer to stay locked away in my room or the library… somewhere quiet… Somewhere…Safe… Maybe I could find that in your embrace…If only I could let you in long enough… I’m tired of hiding…
                I’m sorry for making you so frustrated and angry at me… I don’t know how to let someone in…Because if I let you in… Then I’m setting myself up for heartbreak and I have to make myself vulnerable and I don’t like that…

Adri

Friday, October 26, 2012

Adri

Baby,
       So? It's the truth. And he did. He firmly believes you're beautiful as you are. He hates seeing you alone all the time... He's not asking you to spend every waking moment with us or everyone else, just to peek out of your Hobbit hole once in a while.
       Damn, baby. Next time you have a nightmare, come find us and talk with us about it. Or even Barney or Sam. It might help more than you'd think. And I'm sorry for treating you like you're more fragile than you are.
       Underwood... Do you want to transfer out of there? Or would that really fuck up your GPA?
       Ugh. I'm sorry I've been hurting you with the emo shit and all the worrying. I won't so much anymore.
       Barney... Likes you for who you are, Adri. And he's willing to give you as much space and peace and quiet as you want, too. Just... Trust him some. He means it when he says he thinks you're beautiful.
       Adri... I will always love you, come hell or high water. You're just as much my baby as Oscar and Amber are, and you always will be. And I'll tone down the worry.
 
Mom

mom


Mom,

                You’re supposed to say that I’m pretty and beautiful because you’re my parents… Barney said that? I don’t believe you.
                I do journal… I have drawers full of them… I’ve woken up from the nightmares and ended up puking and afraid to go back to sleep… I’ve tried to tear my hair out of my head… I’ve tried to kill myself. I’ve taken pills… I tried cutting…
                I’m not smart enough for Underwood… I’m not good at anything… I have NO talent… I’ll be a loser for the rest of my life. I’m tarnished for any other guy that wants to be with me… I hate that everybody is walking with eggshells around me. The only person who isn’t is Aunt Sam.
                I’m sick and tired of you crying over me… Of you going emo over me… I can hear you…
                I just… I wanna be left alone. I wanna stay locked inside my room and read. To not be bothered… Silence… Barney just said that I’m beautiful because I’m your kid. I look in the mirror and all I see is an ugly duckling. I’ll never turn into that beautiful swan… I’ll be alone for the rest of my life.
                You have two other kids to love. Just… don’t love me… Give me away to some other family… You don’t worry about Oscar or Amber nearly as much as you do me… I hate it.

Adrianna 

Adri

Baby,
       You will never be a burden, I swear to you. I'm sorry I'm making it so unbearable for you at home... You are worth spending the money on, Oscar and Amber aside.
       I know you're pretty and you're smart. I get that you don't think so, but even Loki and Barney have noticed and commented. Barney thinks you're very beautiful, and I've already warned him not to try anything, though. I don't want him hurting you any more than you've already been hurt.
       If you want to go somewhere easier, you know you've got my full support, no matter what. As for bonding and such, I'll go at whatever pace you're comfortable with, Adri.
       Baby... Noone's trying to guilt trip you. Never have been. Trust me.
       You will never be a Zero. Trust me. You've got plenty of talent, if you want to put it to use.
       Baby... Have you considered talking with a therapist? Or journalling? They may help with the PTSD and the nightmares of the rape... It's ok to need to talk things through after... Just to help yourself heal from the emotional scars. I hate hearing your scream when you wake yourself up from them... I hate feeling so damned helpless to stop them.
       Why do you hate the way you look? You're beautiful the way you are. At least to me and your dad. But we're biased, huh?
 
Kat

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       Baby, I worry about all of you. You aren't a troublemaker, the jackass who raped you is. And yes, the "man" will be killed if anyone in the pack runs across him. I do love you, babygirl.
Mom

Mom


Mom,

                I’ll always be the problem child, won’t I? You and dad don’t worry about Oscar and you and Toby don’t worry about Amber as much as you do me…
                School is fine. By the time you get this, I’ll already be back at Underwood.
                I guess once a problem child always a problem child… Huh?

Adri

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Olivia's story


Olivia
By: Rio


                My name is Olivia Fury. My dad is the director of SHIELD and my mom is his Lt. my dad’s African-American and my mom is white—making me mixed. I’m 13 years old and I have medium brown hair, caramel skin and brown eyes. I recently got braces; with my parents at SHIELD a lot, I take the bus to and from school. My dad said that if I slack off at school, he’s shooting my laptop and stereo. I found that to be kind of extreme, but whatever. I asked for a beta fish last night and my dad said that “I’ve proven myself”. Well, I’m glad that I did.
                I’m in the 7th grade and I play soccer. During the winter, I do figure skating. We don’t have a dog or a cat; my dad told me that I could have a fish, instead. I have trophies on my bookshelf from winning figure skating competitions, trophies for winning soccer games, and piano recitals. I’m taking piano lessons—my dad insisted. He also insisted that I learn how to play classical (Beethoven, Mozart, Bach, etc.) Like I said before, with both my parents at SHEILD so often, the house is pretty empty. I come home to an empty house and I spend at least 2 or 3 hours practicing piano, do whatever chores I have, and spend the rest of the time working on homework or something.
                I named my blue beta fish BB King. I’m a HUGE blues/jazz fan. Oh yeah, BB King is my idol. I’d LOVE to meet him. I wish I had a chance to meet Etta James before she died. Bummer; I’d love to see BB King play live. I’ve been a fan of blues/jazz since I was very little. I have every record BB King ever came out with. I have posters of different Jazz/blues artists on my wall, too. Well, let me tell you a story.
                I awoke to BB King’s “Lucille”. That’s the name of his guitar, you know. I really wanna go to Memphis. That’s where his club is. I also like Ben. E. King and Ray Charles. I’m in jazz band at school and I love it. I’d love to have a chance to show Riley (BB King’s first name) what I can do and maybe get advice and a few pointers from him. I sadly had to turn it off, but just played it on my stereo as I grabbed my clothes and towel and left my room. I don’t have a shower in my room, unlike my parents.
                When I finished my morning routine and walked downstairs, I saw the team and my parents and BB King sitting in the living room. Oh. My. God. BB KING IS IN MY LIVING ROOM!!! HOLY HANNAH! I wanted to squeal and scream in pure happiness. I practically shoved Tony out of the way, sitting on the edge of the couch, Riley sitting in the chair.
                “Would you mind playing something?” He asked
                “Of course not!” I replied happily. Hell, this was SO worth missing school for as I started to play, my guitar plugged into the small amp by my feet as I played one of his solos. We played together as we finished as he laughed.
                “You’re pretty good!” He complimented as I flushed
                “Thank you!”
                “Can you sing?” He asked as I slowly nodded
                “Sing anything or blues?” I asked
                “Anything” Was his reply
                “Did you wanna hear something?” I asked
                “Please”
                With that, I walked over to the piano and started playing and singing. Nobody has ever heard me sing before. I guess that’s one of the good things about my parents being gone so much—I get to sing freely without them hearing me. When Riley requested that I sing, I was kind of nervous. I just pretended that nobody was here. When I finished, everybody was just staring at me.
                The bus ride to school was always the same: In the morning, kids were quiet or hushed whispers came, people sitting with their friends, listening to music. I’m sitting with Rebekka “Becki” Coulson. She’s the same age as me, British, and has brown hair. Her dad and mine are close; she was the last stop on the way to school as she smiled at me.
                “Ello” She greeted
                “Hey. Sup?” I asked
                “Not a lot. You?” She asked
                “Same. Off to school for 8 hours and then back to an empty house” I shrugged.
                “Don’t you get lonely?” She asked
                “Sometimes. You play piano?” I asked as she smiled and nodded.
                “What do you play?” I asked
                “Mostly classical. You?”
                “Same, but when nobody is around, I play some Disney songs…Except for yesterday”
                “Wha’ happened yesterday?” She asked
                “I sang in front of my idol, BB King”
                Her eyes widened
                “Ohmigod!”
                “My feelings exactly. Who’s your idol?” I asked
                “Adele. I’d love to meet her”
                I had to smile.
                “I’ve met her. My aunt Sam is a singer and she got backstage passes”
                “Sam…The lead singer of LoLiTa?” She asked
                “Yup!”
                “I love her! I have every album she came out with!” She stated enthusiastically.
                “Then you’re going to LOVE our extended family”
                I went on to explain about everything I was allowed to tell—never mentioning about the weres or any of the supernatural, or Asgard, the Tesseract, etc. The bus reached the school as everybody got off. She showed me her schedule and I told her we have all the same classes.
                “Y’don’t wear uniforms?” She asked, accent thick as she shut her locker.
                “Not in public school. At Redwood Academy you do” I explained
                “Interesting” She stated
                “What?” I asked
                “E’vrybodies in groups” she observed
                “Mhm. Apparently, social status is a huge thing”
                “No matt’a where y’live” she finished.
                So we went off to class, lunch finally arriving a few hours later. Sitting at a table, I had a chicken patty while she had pizza.
                “What are you doing after school?” I asked aftger swallowing my bite.
                “Unpacking and comic books. I need to find the newest issue of TMNT”
                “I own it”
                “No bloody way!” She exclaimed as I grinned.
                “Way. It’s amazing”
                And that, my friends, was the beginning of a beautiful and long lasting friendship.
                The rest of the day seemed to fly by. I got off the bus and walked up to the house. To my surprise, I saw my parents getting out of the car, gathering groceries.
                “Hey” I greeted, helping.
                “Did you already make dinner?” My mom asked as I shook my head.
                “Was gonna make gumbo.” I told her because I knew gumbo was my dad’s favorite.
                “How was school?” She asked I started to put away the groceries
                “Fine. Took a test in math, got my science test back”
                “Oh yeah? What’d you get?” My dad asked, sipping his coffee.
                “An A”
                “Good”
                I have all A’s right now.
                “Go practice piano” my father said as I nodded.
                So I practiced for a few hours, practicing classical, my father sitting in his recliner, reading the paper and drinking his coffee.
                Becki and Phil came over a half hour later, Becki reading the newest TMNT comic book. I also gave her the address to the comic book shop. They left as I made dinner. After dinner, I did my homework, changed and got into my bed, falling asleep. 

Olivia's list


List of things to do
By: Olivia

1.       Laundry
a.       Wash/dry
b.      Fold
c.       Linen
d.      Clothes
                                                               i.      Mine and parents
2.       Dishes
a.       Put away
b.      Dry
3.       Make dinner
a.       Make ahead and freeze them
4.       Get new bus pass card
5.       Go to piano recital
a.       Starts at 6 and ends at 8
6.       Mail out packages
7.       Babysit
8.       Get groceries
a.       Milk
b.      Bread
c.       Butter
d.      Eggs
e.      Cereal
f.        Hamburger
g.       Tots
9.       Buy more laundry detergent and dryer sheets
10.   Pick up books that are on hold at the library
a.       About 3
11.   Rake yard
a.       Front and back
12.   Homework

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Dad (Phil)


Name: Rebekka Claire Coulson
Birthday: February 14th.
Nick names: Bekka, Becki, Beckster, Beck, RC,
Age: 14
Eye color: Green
Hair color: Brown
British
Wears glasses
Have braces
Smart? 4.0 GPA
Grade: 7th
Geek? Yes. Reads a lot of comics, loves to RP, play MMORPG games,
-          Plays D&D
-          Plays WOW
-          Plays Diablo
-          Pokémon
-          Star Wars
-          Star Trek
-          TMNT
-          Big Bang Theory
-          Phantom of the Opera
-          Doctor Who
-          Magic (Card game)
-          Anime
-          Manga
-          Graphic novels
-          Nightmare before Christmas
-          Corpse Bride
-          Tim Burton movies
-          Harry Potter books/movies
Can quote a line from any movie you ask her
Can quote Shakespeare
 Can speak: French, Spanish, English, and Italian
Music style: Jazz, Rock’n’Roll, Alternative, Blues
Favorite author: Arthur Conan Doyle
Favorite TV show: Doctor Who and The Walking Dead
Favorite Food(s): Chicken nuggets, pizza, crumpets, tarts
Favorite color(s): Blue and lime green
Musical instrument: Violin and Piano
Prefers to spend time in either library or painting
Favorite drink(s): Tea, flavored water, milk
Favorite season: Spring and winter
Clothing style? Jeans, shirts, capris;
Shoe style? Converse or boots
Hair style? Up in a bun or in low pigtails
Painter? Yes. Enjoys spending hours painting
Self-defense? Yes.
-          Hand to hand
-          Weapons (knows how to handle a gun)
-          How to disarm
Hair length: Medium
Favorite candy: Jolly Ranchers or any British candy that’s delicious
**Any British food Becki thinks is good
Computer geek
-          Hacker
Photographic memory
Favorite subject(s) in school: English, Math, Science
Favorite animal(s): Fish, cats, dogs,

Loves too:
-          Cook
-          Bake
-          Read
-          Write
-          Draw
-          Do interior design
Doesn’t understand a lot of American slang, often gets them mixed up
Godparents: Tony and Pepper Stark
Siblings: None
Pet(s): Beta fish—named Harry
Kind of quiet and shy when first meeting people
Nose in a book
Studies hard
Sport: Tennis
Laptop: Apple
Cell phone: No
Weight: 114/115
Height: 5’3 (and growing)
Skinny
No body fat
Popular: No
Job: No (Used to work in a candy store in England)
Favorite holiday: Christmas
Favorite number: 3
Allergy: Mango