Mark.

My dearest Mark,

        How you are the light of my life. How you bring such joy into my life, you don’t even know. I know we’ve had our ups and downs, but that won’t ever stop me from loving you. No matter how much we scream and yell at each other, the love will always be there… our love was meant to last, don’t you think? I know I said I don’t do chick flick moments, but I guess I can make an exception for you, my darling badass. Even with Randy, Hunter, and Taker… My heart will always belong to you. I didn’t marry you because of your fame or your money. I could care less about that, I’ve told you that, and I’ll keep on telling you.

        You’re funny, smart, independent, protective, hot, sexy, and handsome. You take what you want and you don’t look back. I love that about you. You’re a total badass, baby. Words can describe how happy you make me… Even when I’m at the lowest point in my life, or the moment, you always find a way to make me smile and forget my worries. Even when I’m angry, sure, we may argue, but then we’ll be fine a few minutes to a few hours later. I can’t seem to get enough of yow now that you’re mine.

        Way back when, once upon a time when we were just starting out, I thought that I couldn’t love you. I knew about the times you cheated on me with Jeff and Matt and I didn’t care, because we weren’t really a “couple”. Back then, I could walk away from you and not feel guilty because I had nothing to feel guilty for. I’d lay in my bed at night alone and realize that I could just walk out of your life as easily as I came into it. But now? I can’t walk away from you without feeling guilty. You’re my life, and I have a life outside of you. I have friends outside of you and the pack. I wanna explore my life, but I wanna explore it with you.

        Then when we did officially “Get together” we had all this drama with Matt. He was trying to get you back and when you both finally broke up, you were heartbroken and I couldn’t do anything to help you because you pushed me away. You pushed me away to the point I had my bags packed and I left you. I left your love behind. I left you behind. I left my heart behind to a man that probably didn’t even want it. But I came back a few hours later because Jeff was annoying me. You didn’t know that I left, but now you do.

        At first, I had mixed feelings about you, but I wanted to make you mine. I wanted to have kids and grow old together with you. It doesn’t matter what the age difference is between us. To me, age is just a number and you’re just a person. Nobody can help who they fall in love with. You bring a smile to my lips. You make me laugh. You make me cry. You make me angry and frustrated. You make me pissed off. You make me annoyed. You push my buttons. You love me and take my flaws and turn them into perfection in your eyes. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

        Theirs so much I wanna tell you. So much I wanna share with you. But I guess this is enough for right now. I’ll always love you.

Always and Forever,

Your Darlin’ Sam