Mara

‘Mara,

               

                I know that I seem bossy. I know that I seem mean and bitchy, but I’m not. I’m still getting used to having a mate. As time went on, I realized that I can’t…live without you anymore. I need you by my side. I love you, Tamara. I promise to keep your nightmares and fears away. I noticed that you haven’t had any nightmares about Yuri lately.

                I’m not a very easy person to live with sometimes, but like I told you last night: I will NEVER take my anger out on you—maybe sexually, but I will never verbally or physically or mentally abuse you. I’m happy that you agreed to live with me in New Orleans. Even with that yapping, furry pommy mutt! Don’t get me wrong, the dog is okay and I’m happy as all hell he’s housebroken…

                Anyway, I love you more than you will ever know. I know that I may be gone a lot with the counsel and stuff, but I know that you’re back at home, waiting for me. The reason I don’t want kids right away is because well, I’m not ready—(You’d think I would be, considering I grew up in a rather large family and helped take care of the younger kids below me), the council takes up a lot of my time and theirs you. My darling, precious Tamara; my sweet, sexy angel. I don’t know what I did to deserve you. My dad says that about my mom all the time. Even as a half demon, I don’t know how I even deserve you with all the horrible things I’ve had to do.

                “Starting over” with you should be fun. I already asked you to be my mate and you said yes. But ‘Mara, baby…

Would you marry me?

Would you spend the rest of your life with me?

                Would you make me happy and love me forever? I’m not saying that it’ll be easy and all a bed of roses… I want you to be mine. My demon is finally content now… She’s not as bitchy and angry. She’s actually purring now.

I love you. I don’t want to ever lose you, baby.

Love,

Ayva