Mark. Important.

My Darling,

            I can’t go on like this anymore. I’m sorry I put you through so much pain and anger and whatever else I made you feel. Something good will be coming through or happening and I always ruin it whenever I go into a funk. I hate myself and you should hate me too. I know that you’re going to say that you love me and that you can’t live without me, but you’ve said that a million times before. I’ve heard it all before.

            I’m tired of crying myself to sleep. I’m tired of feeling angry all the time. Baby please, I’m reaching out to you, but you’re always out of reach to me. Look at me, I’m way past pride. I just wanna be us again. But time, it seems has different plans; I’m tired of feeling like shit all the time. You’re a part of me, and when that part is gone, I feel empty inside.

            I wanna hear you say those unspoken words to me. I just… I just… I don’t know anymore..

Sam.