Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       I'm damn glad it's off your shoulders. It was driving me nuts seeing you deny yourself what we have.
       I know we're all happier with you hanging out with us more. It's good to see you starting to heal more. I'm happy to see you doing more of what you love.
       I don't blame you for seeing her. Think she can help you pretty well, too. And thank God for Aunt Sam, huh? I don't mind about the looking skinny... As long as I have you to love, I don't care about appearances.
       So am I, Adri. You are definitely worth working through the pain for. I never stopped loving you because I know how strong you are, even when you retreated.
       I miss you when you're at school... Or practice... Or when Fury has me running a mission. But I wouldn't trade what we've built for anything. I'm glad you're my mate, my lover, my everything. And I'm glad to be stuck with you, 'cause you're just as stuck with me, baby. Always, forever and into eternity.
      That sounds like a damn good plan, because I don't plan on ever leaving your side. Ever.
Love,
Barney

Monday, October 29, 2012

Barney


Barney,

                I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I guess denying the bond I have with you…Denying how deeply I love and need you, I guess it was seriously driving me batty.
                With your help, I’m starting to feel like my old self again. I’m not in my room as much anymore… I’m out hanging with Oscar—just like I used too. My dad’s practically giggling because I’m talking to him again. Mom’s not worried anymore, either.
                I’m starting to slowly gain back all the weight I’ve lost since the rape. Aunt Sam says that I’ll always look skinny and that I screwed up my metabolism. I’ve been secretly seeing a female therapist, by recommendation of Aunt Sam (both are good friends) and she put me on anxiety pills.
                When you first told me that you loved me, I seriously wanted to believe you. But something inside me told me not too. Well, that voice went away forever. You’ve been really patient with me, Barney… I’m surprised that you didn’t get up and leave forever.
                You make going through the day a little easier. You make getting out of bed a little less hard in the morning. I miss you when you’re not around me. You’re always on my mind. You’re stuck with me, Barney. Forever, Always and into eternity;
                We’ll take it a day at a time, okay? I’m not perfect and can’t be fixed overnight—no matter how much duct tape or bubble gum you use. Just stay by my side, please? I don’t think I can do this by myself anymore.
Love,
Adri

Adri

Adri,
       I hate knowing how much you're hurting when you shove me away. I hate knowing that you're too stubborn to accept what we've got... I love seeing your smile, hearing your laugh... Most of all, I'm glad you're starting to come back out of the shadows.
       I hate leavig you to the pills when you tell me to leave... I hate that the loneliness encroaches on you again... But I'll be damned if you keep pushing me away anymore. I know that deep down, you know you need me as much as I need you. I'll be damned if we lose each other over our own insecurities.
      I hope you find your happiness too... I want to see you enjoying life, spending more time with your twin, hang with friends...I want to know more about you, know we're truly right for each other.
       So do I, Adri... Every day.
       You know damn well that I'll always let you have your space and alone time. I want to see who you'll be, Adri... And the healing can't come soon enough...
Barney

Barney


Barney,

                Every time I tell you to leave, it hurts me more than you’ll know. You’ve made me laugh again…You’ve made me smile again… I can feel the loneliness starting to ease inside my soul as the warmth that was lost is beginning to come back.
                I get scared of that… Because no matter how much I wanna let myself go and be free, something always restrains me…You keep the nightmares away… Yes, I get frustrated when you question me during sex…Or you’re not doing something that I like fast enough… I tell you to get the hell off me and when you slam out… It hurts… I take a handful of sleeping pills to try to forget and try to ease the loneliness…
                I just wanna be happy again…I wanna be the girl who didn’t get frustrated or angry at the little things… The type of girl who once had friends at school… the girl who hung out with her twin and went to the movies or played video games with him…
                I wish I didn’t get raped…Or when I wore that dress…I almost got raped again… I’m trying to move on… I really am… I’m trying not to let the rape control my life…
                I like my space… I like my “me” time… I like being up in my room by myself with a good book… Just the idea of someone moving in on me… I get panic or anxiety attacks and I hate them… I weigh 110 pounds right now… I used to weigh 115 or 120… I’m not fat and I’m not over weight… I can fit into a size 13 jean and an XS shirt (If I wanted).
                I want a lot of things… I wanna be the girl who spoke her mind… To be able to recite anything of Shakespeare’s…whether it be his sonnets or plays… I knew it all.
                What am I know? I’m a shell of my former self. I’m trying to get back out there. I’m sick of taking it a day at a time.
Adri 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Adri

Baby,
       I know you don't mean to push me away. I get that you're too used to having to keep your walls up to protect yourself. But you don't have to worry about that with me. I'll do everything in my power to keep you safe. I do have an interest in you. Why, I don't know, but I know I like you for who you are, even when you push me away.
       You'll always find safety with me. You don't have to hide when you're with me, either. I'd like to get to know you better if you want to let me.
       I'll never break your heart. I'd hate to leave you in that much pain, that much sorrow... I don't want to leave that kind of scarring on you. You don't deserve that kind of shit.
Barney

Barn


Barney,

                I don’t mean to push you away. I want you to stay by me and lay with me…To hold me throughout the night… I’m tired of having to rely on those sleeping pills… I’m not as depressed as I was before since you’ve started to talk to me… I know I’m getting my hopes up when you say you have an interest in me… Besides, what would you have an interest in a 14 year old girl for?
                I prefer to stay locked away in my room or the library… somewhere quiet… Somewhere…Safe… Maybe I could find that in your embrace…If only I could let you in long enough… I’m tired of hiding…
                I’m sorry for making you so frustrated and angry at me… I don’t know how to let someone in…Because if I let you in… Then I’m setting myself up for heartbreak and I have to make myself vulnerable and I don’t like that…

Adri

Friday, October 26, 2012

Adri

Baby,
       So? It's the truth. And he did. He firmly believes you're beautiful as you are. He hates seeing you alone all the time... He's not asking you to spend every waking moment with us or everyone else, just to peek out of your Hobbit hole once in a while.
       Damn, baby. Next time you have a nightmare, come find us and talk with us about it. Or even Barney or Sam. It might help more than you'd think. And I'm sorry for treating you like you're more fragile than you are.
       Underwood... Do you want to transfer out of there? Or would that really fuck up your GPA?
       Ugh. I'm sorry I've been hurting you with the emo shit and all the worrying. I won't so much anymore.
       Barney... Likes you for who you are, Adri. And he's willing to give you as much space and peace and quiet as you want, too. Just... Trust him some. He means it when he says he thinks you're beautiful.
       Adri... I will always love you, come hell or high water. You're just as much my baby as Oscar and Amber are, and you always will be. And I'll tone down the worry.
 
Mom

mom


Mom,

                You’re supposed to say that I’m pretty and beautiful because you’re my parents… Barney said that? I don’t believe you.
                I do journal… I have drawers full of them… I’ve woken up from the nightmares and ended up puking and afraid to go back to sleep… I’ve tried to tear my hair out of my head… I’ve tried to kill myself. I’ve taken pills… I tried cutting…
                I’m not smart enough for Underwood… I’m not good at anything… I have NO talent… I’ll be a loser for the rest of my life. I’m tarnished for any other guy that wants to be with me… I hate that everybody is walking with eggshells around me. The only person who isn’t is Aunt Sam.
                I’m sick and tired of you crying over me… Of you going emo over me… I can hear you…
                I just… I wanna be left alone. I wanna stay locked inside my room and read. To not be bothered… Silence… Barney just said that I’m beautiful because I’m your kid. I look in the mirror and all I see is an ugly duckling. I’ll never turn into that beautiful swan… I’ll be alone for the rest of my life.
                You have two other kids to love. Just… don’t love me… Give me away to some other family… You don’t worry about Oscar or Amber nearly as much as you do me… I hate it.

Adrianna 

Adri

Baby,
       You will never be a burden, I swear to you. I'm sorry I'm making it so unbearable for you at home... You are worth spending the money on, Oscar and Amber aside.
       I know you're pretty and you're smart. I get that you don't think so, but even Loki and Barney have noticed and commented. Barney thinks you're very beautiful, and I've already warned him not to try anything, though. I don't want him hurting you any more than you've already been hurt.
       If you want to go somewhere easier, you know you've got my full support, no matter what. As for bonding and such, I'll go at whatever pace you're comfortable with, Adri.
       Baby... Noone's trying to guilt trip you. Never have been. Trust me.
       You will never be a Zero. Trust me. You've got plenty of talent, if you want to put it to use.
       Baby... Have you considered talking with a therapist? Or journalling? They may help with the PTSD and the nightmares of the rape... It's ok to need to talk things through after... Just to help yourself heal from the emotional scars. I hate hearing your scream when you wake yourself up from them... I hate feeling so damned helpless to stop them.
       Why do you hate the way you look? You're beautiful the way you are. At least to me and your dad. But we're biased, huh?
 
Kat

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Adri

Adri,
       Baby, I worry about all of you. You aren't a troublemaker, the jackass who raped you is. And yes, the "man" will be killed if anyone in the pack runs across him. I do love you, babygirl.
Mom

Mom


Mom,

                I’ll always be the problem child, won’t I? You and dad don’t worry about Oscar and you and Toby don’t worry about Amber as much as you do me…
                School is fine. By the time you get this, I’ll already be back at Underwood.
                I guess once a problem child always a problem child… Huh?

Adri

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Olivia's story


Olivia
By: Rio


                My name is Olivia Fury. My dad is the director of SHIELD and my mom is his Lt. my dad’s African-American and my mom is white—making me mixed. I’m 13 years old and I have medium brown hair, caramel skin and brown eyes. I recently got braces; with my parents at SHIELD a lot, I take the bus to and from school. My dad said that if I slack off at school, he’s shooting my laptop and stereo. I found that to be kind of extreme, but whatever. I asked for a beta fish last night and my dad said that “I’ve proven myself”. Well, I’m glad that I did.
                I’m in the 7th grade and I play soccer. During the winter, I do figure skating. We don’t have a dog or a cat; my dad told me that I could have a fish, instead. I have trophies on my bookshelf from winning figure skating competitions, trophies for winning soccer games, and piano recitals. I’m taking piano lessons—my dad insisted. He also insisted that I learn how to play classical (Beethoven, Mozart, Bach, etc.) Like I said before, with both my parents at SHEILD so often, the house is pretty empty. I come home to an empty house and I spend at least 2 or 3 hours practicing piano, do whatever chores I have, and spend the rest of the time working on homework or something.
                I named my blue beta fish BB King. I’m a HUGE blues/jazz fan. Oh yeah, BB King is my idol. I’d LOVE to meet him. I wish I had a chance to meet Etta James before she died. Bummer; I’d love to see BB King play live. I’ve been a fan of blues/jazz since I was very little. I have every record BB King ever came out with. I have posters of different Jazz/blues artists on my wall, too. Well, let me tell you a story.
                I awoke to BB King’s “Lucille”. That’s the name of his guitar, you know. I really wanna go to Memphis. That’s where his club is. I also like Ben. E. King and Ray Charles. I’m in jazz band at school and I love it. I’d love to have a chance to show Riley (BB King’s first name) what I can do and maybe get advice and a few pointers from him. I sadly had to turn it off, but just played it on my stereo as I grabbed my clothes and towel and left my room. I don’t have a shower in my room, unlike my parents.
                When I finished my morning routine and walked downstairs, I saw the team and my parents and BB King sitting in the living room. Oh. My. God. BB KING IS IN MY LIVING ROOM!!! HOLY HANNAH! I wanted to squeal and scream in pure happiness. I practically shoved Tony out of the way, sitting on the edge of the couch, Riley sitting in the chair.
                “Would you mind playing something?” He asked
                “Of course not!” I replied happily. Hell, this was SO worth missing school for as I started to play, my guitar plugged into the small amp by my feet as I played one of his solos. We played together as we finished as he laughed.
                “You’re pretty good!” He complimented as I flushed
                “Thank you!”
                “Can you sing?” He asked as I slowly nodded
                “Sing anything or blues?” I asked
                “Anything” Was his reply
                “Did you wanna hear something?” I asked
                “Please”
                With that, I walked over to the piano and started playing and singing. Nobody has ever heard me sing before. I guess that’s one of the good things about my parents being gone so much—I get to sing freely without them hearing me. When Riley requested that I sing, I was kind of nervous. I just pretended that nobody was here. When I finished, everybody was just staring at me.
                The bus ride to school was always the same: In the morning, kids were quiet or hushed whispers came, people sitting with their friends, listening to music. I’m sitting with Rebekka “Becki” Coulson. She’s the same age as me, British, and has brown hair. Her dad and mine are close; she was the last stop on the way to school as she smiled at me.
                “Ello” She greeted
                “Hey. Sup?” I asked
                “Not a lot. You?” She asked
                “Same. Off to school for 8 hours and then back to an empty house” I shrugged.
                “Don’t you get lonely?” She asked
                “Sometimes. You play piano?” I asked as she smiled and nodded.
                “What do you play?” I asked
                “Mostly classical. You?”
                “Same, but when nobody is around, I play some Disney songs…Except for yesterday”
                “Wha’ happened yesterday?” She asked
                “I sang in front of my idol, BB King”
                Her eyes widened
                “Ohmigod!”
                “My feelings exactly. Who’s your idol?” I asked
                “Adele. I’d love to meet her”
                I had to smile.
                “I’ve met her. My aunt Sam is a singer and she got backstage passes”
                “Sam…The lead singer of LoLiTa?” She asked
                “Yup!”
                “I love her! I have every album she came out with!” She stated enthusiastically.
                “Then you’re going to LOVE our extended family”
                I went on to explain about everything I was allowed to tell—never mentioning about the weres or any of the supernatural, or Asgard, the Tesseract, etc. The bus reached the school as everybody got off. She showed me her schedule and I told her we have all the same classes.
                “Y’don’t wear uniforms?” She asked, accent thick as she shut her locker.
                “Not in public school. At Redwood Academy you do” I explained
                “Interesting” She stated
                “What?” I asked
                “E’vrybodies in groups” she observed
                “Mhm. Apparently, social status is a huge thing”
                “No matt’a where y’live” she finished.
                So we went off to class, lunch finally arriving a few hours later. Sitting at a table, I had a chicken patty while she had pizza.
                “What are you doing after school?” I asked aftger swallowing my bite.
                “Unpacking and comic books. I need to find the newest issue of TMNT”
                “I own it”
                “No bloody way!” She exclaimed as I grinned.
                “Way. It’s amazing”
                And that, my friends, was the beginning of a beautiful and long lasting friendship.
                The rest of the day seemed to fly by. I got off the bus and walked up to the house. To my surprise, I saw my parents getting out of the car, gathering groceries.
                “Hey” I greeted, helping.
                “Did you already make dinner?” My mom asked as I shook my head.
                “Was gonna make gumbo.” I told her because I knew gumbo was my dad’s favorite.
                “How was school?” She asked I started to put away the groceries
                “Fine. Took a test in math, got my science test back”
                “Oh yeah? What’d you get?” My dad asked, sipping his coffee.
                “An A”
                “Good”
                I have all A’s right now.
                “Go practice piano” my father said as I nodded.
                So I practiced for a few hours, practicing classical, my father sitting in his recliner, reading the paper and drinking his coffee.
                Becki and Phil came over a half hour later, Becki reading the newest TMNT comic book. I also gave her the address to the comic book shop. They left as I made dinner. After dinner, I did my homework, changed and got into my bed, falling asleep. 

Olivia's list


List of things to do
By: Olivia

1.       Laundry
a.       Wash/dry
b.      Fold
c.       Linen
d.      Clothes
                                                               i.      Mine and parents
2.       Dishes
a.       Put away
b.      Dry
3.       Make dinner
a.       Make ahead and freeze them
4.       Get new bus pass card
5.       Go to piano recital
a.       Starts at 6 and ends at 8
6.       Mail out packages
7.       Babysit
8.       Get groceries
a.       Milk
b.      Bread
c.       Butter
d.      Eggs
e.      Cereal
f.        Hamburger
g.       Tots
9.       Buy more laundry detergent and dryer sheets
10.   Pick up books that are on hold at the library
a.       About 3
11.   Rake yard
a.       Front and back
12.   Homework

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Dad (Phil)


Name: Rebekka Claire Coulson
Birthday: February 14th.
Nick names: Bekka, Becki, Beckster, Beck, RC,
Age: 14
Eye color: Green
Hair color: Brown
British
Wears glasses
Have braces
Smart? 4.0 GPA
Grade: 7th
Geek? Yes. Reads a lot of comics, loves to RP, play MMORPG games,
-          Plays D&D
-          Plays WOW
-          Plays Diablo
-          Pokémon
-          Star Wars
-          Star Trek
-          TMNT
-          Big Bang Theory
-          Phantom of the Opera
-          Doctor Who
-          Magic (Card game)
-          Anime
-          Manga
-          Graphic novels
-          Nightmare before Christmas
-          Corpse Bride
-          Tim Burton movies
-          Harry Potter books/movies
Can quote a line from any movie you ask her
Can quote Shakespeare
 Can speak: French, Spanish, English, and Italian
Music style: Jazz, Rock’n’Roll, Alternative, Blues
Favorite author: Arthur Conan Doyle
Favorite TV show: Doctor Who and The Walking Dead
Favorite Food(s): Chicken nuggets, pizza, crumpets, tarts
Favorite color(s): Blue and lime green
Musical instrument: Violin and Piano
Prefers to spend time in either library or painting
Favorite drink(s): Tea, flavored water, milk
Favorite season: Spring and winter
Clothing style? Jeans, shirts, capris;
Shoe style? Converse or boots
Hair style? Up in a bun or in low pigtails
Painter? Yes. Enjoys spending hours painting
Self-defense? Yes.
-          Hand to hand
-          Weapons (knows how to handle a gun)
-          How to disarm
Hair length: Medium
Favorite candy: Jolly Ranchers or any British candy that’s delicious
**Any British food Becki thinks is good
Computer geek
-          Hacker
Photographic memory
Favorite subject(s) in school: English, Math, Science
Favorite animal(s): Fish, cats, dogs,

Loves too:
-          Cook
-          Bake
-          Read
-          Write
-          Draw
-          Do interior design
Doesn’t understand a lot of American slang, often gets them mixed up
Godparents: Tony and Pepper Stark
Siblings: None
Pet(s): Beta fish—named Harry
Kind of quiet and shy when first meeting people
Nose in a book
Studies hard
Sport: Tennis
Laptop: Apple
Cell phone: No
Weight: 114/115
Height: 5’3 (and growing)
Skinny
No body fat
Popular: No
Job: No (Used to work in a candy store in England)
Favorite holiday: Christmas
Favorite number: 3
Allergy: Mango














Sunday, October 21, 2012

Adri

Babygirl,
        I could gladly kill the jackass who raped you. He had no reason to hurt you that bad. Nobody does.
Kat

Adri


Adri
By: Rio

                You look like a homeless person…Rang out in my head over and over again as I looked up at the ceiling. This room had no windows; I yearn for windows…To see the sunrise, to see the sunset… All this room really had was a small, very narrow path from the door to my bed. I don’t know why I chose this room… The clothes I own used to be new… My mom’s right… They’re going to fall asleep when I go to wash them next. They kept buying me new clothes and I kept giving them back. Why? Because I wanted to go pick them out; I know that I shouldn’t be picky about when someone buys me new clothes… Truth is, I hate shopping at Goodwill. My shoes are falling apart, my favorite pair of boots are pretty much destroyed…
                Let me buy you some new clothing, Addy… Please? My mom’s voice rang out in my head as I bit my lip. God, I wanted to scream out, “Yes! Please!” but I refrained. Why? New clothes cost money and I know that my mom isn’t hurting for it, but if I can fix what I have…Please…That’s an excuse and you know it. That nagging little voice in the back of my head rang out. Yeah, I know it is… I wanna go up to her and tell her to take me shopping… I wanna break free and tell her everything; I wanna tell her what I like… to stop being the trouble child; I want my parents to stop worrying about me… my own twin is worried about me.
                I got up and stumbled over to the mirror that’s hanging on the door. Oh yeah. No bathroom in this room either. My pajamas were old and ratty, too. I flipped on the light and reached over for my wallet. Opening It, I found about 200$ in cash. I tossed it onto my bed as I grabbed a towel and my toiletries, and a pair of clothes and made my way to the hall bathroom. The bigger rooms have bathrooms in them, another thing I yearn for.  
                I didn’t feel any better after my shower; I dried off and got into some clothes. I had asked my roommate at Underwood if I could borrow some a shirt and jeans. She happily let me do it. I picked out a pair of blue skinny jeans with the British flag (My roommate is British) on the left pocket and a pink Pikachu long sleeved shirt. I pulled on some socks, braided my hair as I left. Padding back to my room, Oscar looked at me, eyes wide.
                “Holy crap! You’re wearing new clothes!” He nearly fainted as I rolled my eyes.
                “I’m borrowing them.” I informed him
                “You’re really hurting mom, Adri” He whispered
                “How?” I asked, head tilted
                “By not letting her buy you new clothes. She cried last night… You’re staying in that storage room that’s not big enough…”
                “Shove it, Oscar, and leave the hell alone” I snapped.
                With that, I went back to my “room”. Before my dad picked me up from the train station on Friday, I went out and bought a pair of new shoes. They were a pair of high tops and really comfortable. They were a pair of Nike high tops. White and pink with black splatters; I slipped the shoes on, grabbed my wallet and my sweater. I left my room and headed downstairs, looking at my parents.
                “Can I get a ride?” I asked as they looked at me.
                “Who bought you the clothes?” My mom asked
                “I borrowed them. Can I get a ride?” I repeated
                They looked at each other and sighed.
                “I’ll give you one” My dad said, standing. We went out to his Lamborghini as he pulled out of the driveway.
                “Your mom’s hurtin’, kid” He said.
                “Oscar told me.”
                “Where are we going?” He asked
                “Library”
                “It’s open on a Sunday?” He asked
                “Yeah.” I lied
                We got to the library as I thanked him, watching him drive away. I went to the bus stop as it came. I showed the driver my card as I sat. A few minutes later, we got to the mall. I got off as I went inside. I went to the directory as my eyes roved over it. Now that I’m skinnier, I can pull of these skinny jeans. I walked into Old Navy and browsed around. I whirled around when I heard my mom’s laugh as I made myself vanish into another section of clothing, but still close enough to listen to the conversation.
                “I wish she would let me buy her some new clothes…” she sighed
                “She wants too… she really does” Aunt Sam informed her
                “Then why won’t she tell me?” My mom asked, looking at clothes
                “She doesn’t know how… She…” Aunt Sam sighed “She’s afraid of your reaction”
                “What the hell for?” My mom asked, accent thick
                “Because she feels like she doesn’t deserve anything new”
                “Where the fuck did she gets that idea from?!” My mom growled
                “Dunno. But she told me that she wants a bigger room… She wants a lot of things, but she doesn’t know how to tell you or Dave. So I guess she’s saving up her allowance or something. She doesn’t want you or Dave to spend a lot of money on her because you have Oscar and Amber… She said she had a list for her birthday, but never told you or Dave.” Aunt Sam explained.
                God… The look on my mom’s face… It was sadness mixed with a hint of anger. I feel guilty as hell… Maybe I should just let her buy me new clothes… I just wanna know you better… she said, I’m your daughter… You do know me. Was my reply. Sometimes I feel like I don’t. I don’t know what you like to do… Was I being selfish? No, I don’t think so. I sighed softly. She’s wanted to buy me new clothes and I’ve been telling her no… she just wants to see me happy and with new clothes… I know that she’s not hurting for money—she told me so herself. She didn’t do anything wrong. I do need new clothes now that winter is rapidly approaching…
                I left Old Navy, neither one of them noticing me—but I know Aunt Sam knew I was there. I left the mall and decided to go the local teen hangout spot. It had arcade games, a few big screen TV’s and a hang out place with couches and high top tables, etc. I sat at one of the tables and pulled out a book.
                I took the bus home and when I walked in the front door, I came face to face with my mother.
                “Hey” I said
                “You lied’ She growled
                “About what?” I asked
                “Goin’ to the library. Your father just drove by and found it closed!”
                “Shame” was my reply
                “Where were you?” She asked
                “Java Lava”
                “Why did you lie?” She asked
                “Dunno. Can I go now?” I asked as she snarled softly
                “Why won’t you let me get you new clothes, but you’ll borrow them from someone else?!” She nearly screamed at me. I remained silent.
                “Fine…” And with that, she left.
                I walked upstairs a few minutes after she did and walked past my parent’s bedroom. I heard her crying softly inside. I wanted to go in there and hug her and tell her that I’ll be fine. A part of me tells me to stop; another part of me says does it. I softly ran my hand down the door before walking back to my “room”.
                You look like a damn homeless person…You look like a homeless person…sometimes I feel like I don’t know what you like… Like I don’t know… I rolled onto my side, looking at the wall. The walls were bare and white. No decoration. Plain; vanilla; boring; blah; those words echoed in my head over and over again. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling like crap. I’m tired of feeling guilty. I’m tired of holding everything in. I want new clothes. I want a new room. I want to tell my parents that I’m a good child… That they are good parents; I want my mom to stop hurting and crying all the time; I want her to be happy…
                Looking over at the table, I found my pocket knife resting open. I had cut before—never too deep. I looked at my arms, finding faint scars—part of being half mutant—the healing bit. I rubbed my face, looking up at the ceiling. I want to tell my parents what I want. I wanna tell them that I need a new basketball. That I need new glasses; that I need a new journal; that I need a new chain for my necklace they bought me for my 8th birthday. That I wanna go out for mother/daughter or father/daughter time; that I wanna go out on tour with them sometime;
                I looked over at my knife again before picking it up. If you do that, you’re only gonna hurt her more that nagging voice said. I know… I put the knife back and curled up on my bed, falling into an uneasy sleep. 

Adri


Adri
By: Rio

                I’m Adri and I’m 13. I’m a student of Underwood Academy; most people don’t know that Underwood exists. Don’t really know why. Back before I transferred, I was getting bullied a lot. I cut myself; I stayed in a smaller room—so small that you could only fit a small table and my bed and maybe a stack of blue crates for my clothes. It didn’t have a closet. I applied for Underwood without my parents knowing. Why? Because they’re already worried about me as it is. I wish I could tell them what’s on my mind…That I wanted a bigger room. That I wanted to decorate it the way that I want; I wish I could tell them that I’m interested in photography and DJing. I wish I could tell them that I want to write. I journal a lot and have no friends. I hang out with the Barton and Stark twins, but they’re closer knit. I wish I could get my mom to stop hurting… I wish I could just hug her and tell her that I’ll be okay…
                I’m not skinny, but I’m not overly heavy either. I have a bit of a belly. But since I started going to Underwood, I don’t have that belly anymore. I’ve lost at least 10 pounds while I was there. I have circles under my eyes and I’m ready for a breakdown. When I saw my new room, I just snapped. I couldn’t believe they changed it without me knowing! I wanted to do it. I wanted to decorate it. I wanted to do it all by myself. I wanted to take something and call it my own. But I guess they wouldn’t know that since I keep to myself and I’m quiet. I prefer to observe people. I speak when spoken too. When I’m alone with Oscar, my twin, I’m happy and laughing and joking around.
                A few of Aunt Sam and Uncle Mark’s kids went to Underwood. Their one daughter, Lili, went from 6th grade until 12th. Lili is super smart and she even said Underwood was a challenge for her. I’m struggling. I’m struggling to keep my solid A/B average. I keep thinking that maybe I should’ve applied for Redwood Academy instead. Maybe I’m not ready for Underwood. Aunt Sam did warn me that Underwood was a more challenging of a school. I hate to disappoint people, so I always try and try. I put others before me, their needs before mine.
                I do love my parents—I just don’t say it because they already know. I push them away because I don’t want them to worry about me. I don’t like to be touched (Unless it’s certain people). I don’t like drama. But, if I did go to Redwood, I’d have to live at home… The ranch is an awesome place. I love it there. Everybody’s funny and caring and nice… I don’t know why I chose to have the smaller room. Aunt Sam it was meant to be a storage room and now I see why. I yearn for something bigger… I yearn for that bigger room for the DJing equipment I wanted to ask for my birthday. I didn’t ask for anything, even though I had a list of what I wanted… I wish I could tell my parents that I can play the guitar, drums, and keyboard. I wish I could tell them that I really love DJing. That I love learning how; I wish I could tell them that I’m a sport’s junky. I wish I could tell them I love to skateboard. I wish I could tell them that I love to read.
                With the weight I lost at Underwood, I have to get new clothes. I can fit into a size 12 from a size 15. I don’t look anorexic, either. My roommate at Underwood is kind of like me. We get along and have laughs and hang out whenever we have the time. She’s also on a trial run and she’s pulling all A’s. Am I not smart enough? I study my butt off—I guess people learn at different paces. I wish I could tell them my favorite color is a silverish blue.
                I know my parents love me. I know that my older sister and my twin love me… I talk with Aunt Sam a lot—I guess it’s different talking with an aunt rather than your own mother because well…She’s your mom. I love Aunt Sam. She’s funny to be around; she cares about you; what I love the most about her is that she’s not afraid to tell you her thoughts or if she’ll give you advice, she’ll tell it to you straight. She always says, “The truth hurts, get over it.” I don’t want to feel like a charity case or where people have to pity me and feel like they need to hang with me. I want them to want to hang out with me…
                I love my mother, too. She knits a lot… I know she would do anything for me… My mom’s a mutant with a tail. I think she cut mine off or I just wasn’t born with one. I liked pulling on it when I was a baby…
                I guess I don’t have anything else left to say. But if I do, it’s a lot.

Adri

Adri


Adri
By: Rio

                I’m Adri and I’m 13. I’m a student of Underwood Academy; most people don’t know that Underwood exists. Don’t really know why. Back before I transferred, I was getting bullied a lot. I cut myself; I stayed in a smaller room—so small that you could only fit a small table and my bed and maybe a stack of blue crates for my clothes. It didn’t have a closet. I applied for Underwood without my parents knowing. Why? Because they’re already worried about me as it is. I wish I could tell them what’s on my mind…That I wanted a bigger room. That I wanted to decorate it the way that I want; I wish I could tell them that I’m interested in photography and DJing. I wish I could tell them that I want to write. I journal a lot and have no friends. I hang out with the Barton and Stark twins, but they’re closer knit. I wish I could get my mom to stop hurting… I wish I could just hug her and tell her that I’ll be okay…
                I’m not skinny, but I’m not overly heavy either. I have a bit of a belly. But since I started going to Underwood, I don’t have that belly anymore. I’ve lost at least 10 pounds while I was there. I have circles under my eyes and I’m ready for a breakdown. When I saw my new room, I just snapped. I couldn’t believe they changed it without me knowing! I wanted to do it. I wanted to decorate it. I wanted to do it all by myself. I wanted to take something and call it my own. But I guess they wouldn’t know that since I keep to myself and I’m quiet. I prefer to observe people. I speak when spoken too. When I’m alone with Oscar, my twin, I’m happy and laughing and joking around.
                A few of Aunt Sam and Uncle Mark’s kids went to Underwood. Their one daughter, Lili, went from 6th grade until 12th. Lili is super smart and she even said Underwood was a challenge for her. I’m struggling. I’m struggling to keep my solid A/B average. I keep thinking that maybe I should’ve applied for Redwood Academy instead. Maybe I’m not ready for Underwood. Aunt Sam did warn me that Underwood was a more challenging of a school. I hate to disappoint people, so I always try and try. I put others before me, their needs before mine.
                I do love my parents—I just don’t say it because they already know. I push them away because I don’t want them to worry about me. I don’t like to be touched (Unless it’s certain people). I don’t like drama. But, if I did go to Redwood, I’d have to live at home… The ranch is an awesome place. I love it there. Everybody’s funny and caring and nice… I don’t know why I chose to have the smaller room. Aunt Sam it was meant to be a storage room and now I see why. I yearn for something bigger… I yearn for that bigger room for the DJing equipment I wanted to ask for my birthday. I didn’t ask for anything, even though I had a list of what I wanted… I wish I could tell my parents that I can play the guitar, drums, and keyboard. I wish I could tell them that I really love DJing. That I love learning how; I wish I could tell them that I’m a sport’s junky. I wish I could tell them I love to skateboard. I wish I could tell them that I love to read.
                With the weight I lost at Underwood, I have to get new clothes. I can fit into a size 12 from a size 15. I don’t look anorexic, either. My roommate at Underwood is kind of like me. We get along and have laughs and hang out whenever we have the time. She’s also on a trial run and she’s pulling all A’s. Am I not smart enough? I study my butt off—I guess people learn at different paces. I wish I could tell them my favorite color is a silverish blue.
                I know my parents love me. I know that my older sister and my twin love me… I talk with Aunt Sam a lot—I guess it’s different talking with an aunt rather than your own mother because well…She’s your mom. I love Aunt Sam. She’s funny to be around; she cares about you; what I love the most about her is that she’s not afraid to tell you her thoughts or if she’ll give you advice, she’ll tell it to you straight. She always says, “The truth hurts, get over it.” I don’t want to feel like a charity case or where people have to pity me and feel like they need to hang with me. I want them to want to hang out with me…
                I love my mother, too. She knits a lot… I know she would do anything for me… My mom’s a mutant with a tail. I think she cut mine off or I just wasn’t born with one. I liked pulling on it when I was a baby…
                I guess I don’t have anything else left to say. But if I do, it’s a lot.

Adri

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Jinny's Story


JR
By: Rio

               
                My name is Jinger Rose Calaway and I’m 16 years old. Though, people call me ‘Jinny’, ‘Jin’, ‘Jing’, ‘JinJin’ (Tony calls me that), ‘Jin Rummy’ (My dad calls me that). Jeff and Shan refer to me and Amber as “Jin and Vodka”.  I have long blond, wavy hair, and blue green eyes. Oh, did I mention that I’m totally and completely in love with Bruce Banner? Ever since I was little, I was able to calm down Hulk whenever he lost control. As my uncle Tony would call it, “Raging Green Monster”. I’m a sophomore in high school and I’m a total band geek. I can play the flute, saxophone, guitar, piano (and keyboard), and the drums. Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve always wanted to become a surgeon. What kind, you ask? Well, I want to be a cardiothoracic surgeon. I love helping people. I volunteer at the local hospital, too. I’m taking AP courses in school right now, and I’m looking at the different medical schools. It’s going to be tough, but I can live with it.
                Now that I’m 16, Bruce and I can finally act on our bond. We’ve waited long enough for this. Rowen and Donny moved out when they graduated high school. Ro lives with Steve now and is going to college for photography and graphic design. Donny’s going to school in Australia. Degas…he bought a really nice house in North Carolina. He and Sif got married and seeing as the farm is doing really well, they’re going to try for a baby (Even though Sif is 5 months pregnant, so I guess trying is out of the question, haha!)
                High school is okay; been keeping myself busy. My best friend, Amber is also taking all AP classes. We have all the same classes, just at different times (Except for 1st period). Amber and I have been best friends since we were two. Never got into an argument or a fight. Amber and I spend all of our time together. Our parents don’t even ask if one of us could come over anymore.
                We’re not one for high school drama or drama in general. Hell, Amber and I are so close, we finish each other’s sentences! Amber doesn’t have many friends either. She wants to become a lawyer, so she’s going to law school when she graduates.
                Anya and Nik have grown up now. They’re in middle school. Anya inherited Clint’s love of archery and wants to become an agent of SHIELD. While Nik had inherited Tasha’s love for guns. Piper had another baby girl and they named her Kristal.
                I can’t wait until I graduate high school and go into medical school. My mom said a lot of all-nighters, coffee, and energy drinks. Also, A LOT of memorization; I’ve been sleeping in Bruce’s room or he’s been sleeping in mine.
                The silence was broken by the shrill annoyance that is my alarm clock. I didn’t wanna move because I was snugged deep into Bruce’s side and I was all nice and warm and cozy. I felt him move and reach over and turn my alarm off.
                “C’mon, Jin…Time to wake up.” He whispered. His voice was deep from sleep and still husky. I whined.
                “You wore me out last night!” I exclaimed, feeling him smirk against my naked shoulder.
                Last night… Good God. It was late and I was working on my homework, fuming over what my teacher had said to me and Bruce came into my room, pants tented all to hell. He locked my door, turned the sound proof on and had his way with me. But God was it ever fun!
                “Gotta shower, baby.” He informed me, suckling on the spot behind my ear as I moaned.
                “Keep doing that and I won’t go to school at all” I warned as he stopped.
                I got up and padded over to the shower, yawning. After going through my morning routine, I was ready to go. I picked up Amber from her house as we went to school. My first class flew by and now I’m in my second. Today I’m wearing jeans and jeans over my ugg boots. Amber and I carpool (seeing as she doesn’t have a car yet). Seeing as I know how to work on vehicles (Thanks to my parents), so for my 16th birthday, my parents picked up a run down truck and I fixed her up. Now she runs perfectly.
                Soon enough, lunch came around. I met Amber by our lockers as we left the school. Open Campus. We got into my truck and left. She turned the radio on, “What about Now” by Lonestar played as we smile.d
                “You look tired” She commented as I came to a red light.
                “Nah. Figment of your imagination!” I teased, going when the green light shone.
                “Burger King?” She suggested
                “Schwarma!” I grinned.
                I drove to the place as we got out. We found Bruce, Justin, Tony, and Steve inside.
                “JinJin!” Tony exclaimed, motioning us over as I waved. After we ordered, we joined them.
                “Cuttin’ school?” Tony asked, eyes twinkling as we laughe.d
                “You know it. My next class is AP Bio” I stated, sipping my Pepsi.              
                After the girls night, I had gone back home and stayed up until 2 am to finish my homework. Did I tell you that I’m addicted to the blueberry/pomegranate vitamin water and Lifesavers gummies? No? Well, mom had bought the vitamin water and it looked kind of good so I had a taste and I was hooked. Now mom has a few cases stocked up in the pantry. I’m on the hockey (That’s right: Hockey) team for school (Boys, not girls. I’m the only girl on the team) and I love it. I’m good at hockey (thanks to my older brothers!)
                Now I’m sitting in front of Amber’s house as I honked the horn for the 2nd time. The door was yanked open as Amber ran out, toast in her mouth. She got in as I took off after waving to Kat.
                “Took y’long enough!”
                “Shut up. I haven’t been to bed yet” She informed me, buckling up.
                “Why not?” I asked, taking a bite out of her toast.
                “Homework”
                “And?” I prodded
                “And? No, Justin did not come over nor did I go over to Justin’s!” She exclaimed as I laughed.
                We got to school (I have my name on the parking spot) as we went inside. All the Calaway and two Orton kids have gone to this school. (Gabe, Lulu, Liam, Ayva, Rowen, Donny, Degas, Piper (Before taking the High School Equivalency test), Val, Frost, etc.); I’m a Calaway kid!
                We went to our lockers and guess what I found on mine? Papers with words on them: Fag, Whore, bitch, etc. Stella. That bitch. Amber took them all off and glared. Amber has Kat’s temper—baaaaaaad! I got my mom’s temper (Worse than Kat’s. My mom is downright scary when she’s pissed off!) I just found all of this amusing. Stella makes empty threats;
                “Relax, Ammy” I told her, using her childhood nickname as she smiled. When we were kids (About 2 or 3), she told me there wasn’t any nicknames for Amber and I said there was. So I came up with “Ammy” (Pronounced: Am-mi). Only I get to call her that. Like I said before, I have a lot of nicknames.
                We have first period together. Today, Amber wore my jersey (Says “CALAWAY” with the number 13 and in school colors) and jeans with her sneakers. Her hair was braided. Me? I’m wearing my ripped jeans (in the knees), my sneakers, and a LolItA shirt. My hair was in a messy bun, bangs in my face. I also wear glasses (When I’m reading only). I get hellacious migraines if I try to read for long periods of time without them (I told my parents this and it was happening since I was 13. I kept getting really bad migraines/headaches, so they took me to see the eye doctor and he told me that I needed reading glasses. They have black frames and are pretty cool looking).
                We sat at our desks as I took out the packet that was due today.
                “Was the entire thing due?” Amber asked as I nodded.
                “Mhm. He said the more detailed you were, the better chance of getting a good grade on it you have.” She groaned, head thunking on her desk. The teacher walked in after the bell, grinning.
                “Surprise quiz!” He informed us as we groaned. He collected our homework and passed out the two page quiz. This was AP Biology and I was not prepared for this quiz at all.
                Once everybody had turned in their quizzes, we had lab for the rest of the period—dissecting a baby shark. He talked for a while as we got with our lab partners.
                “This is gross” Amber muttered, pulling her gloves on.
                “Deal with it” Was all I said.
                Half way through class, he handed back our quiz. He handed mine back.
                “Very good, Jinger.” And on the top I saw a big fat A. That surprised me; I looked over when Amber sighed.
                “I got a B-“
                “That’s good!”
                “You did better” She whined as I rolled my eyes
                “I didn’t study. This quiz caught me by surprise”
                After Bio, we didn’t have any other classes together. She had AP European history and I had AP Stats. I grabbed my Stats binder, book, and pencil case and went to class. The bell rang a few minutes later as the teacher came in.
                “I’m going to hand back your test you took last week. The material is hard people. That’s why this is an Advanced Placement class; you can’t miss this class!” He exclaimed, going around the class passing back the test. It was a 4 page test and I had struggled with this section a little so I wouldn’t be surprised if I either got a low C or an F. Taking out my homework, I wrote my name on the top. I’m ambidextrous (meaning I can write with both my right and left hand, but I prefer my left). I looked up when my test hit my notebook. Turning it over, I found a big red A on it. This…surprised me greatly. The teacher talked about the test and then started his lecture and writing notes on the board. When the bell rang, he called me up to his desk.
                “You did very well on this test. Very well.” He complemented
                “Thank you. I’m surprised I got an A” I confessed
                “I struggled some with this section and I did study. I kept going over the problems and doing review”
                “Well, you ask questions during class. You come during office hours and before school starts, so you’re on a good track, Jinger. Keep up the good work” I thanked him and left.
                Lunch time; I met Amber in line, music playing in the cafeteria. I got a chicken patty, fries, and milk. Amber got pizza, tots, and milk. We sat at our usual table as I dug in. I was starving for some reason.
                “I went in this morning and talked with Mr. Branson” She told me. Mr. Branson is our AP Stats teacher.
                “Oh yeah?”
                “I got a C- on the test. I went in to get help on a problem and he showed me” She told me as she sighed.
                “I got an A and I struggled like hell. You saw me”
                “Did you study?”
                “Yeah. I study for a few hours and do my homework. I also ask for help, too”
                She sighed again and bite into her pizza. I opened my milk and downed it.
                “Mom said the only way I’ll get my car is if I pull out grades higher than a C” She stated as I tilted my head.
                “What’re your grades right now?” I asked
                “A’s, B’s, and C’s” I raised an eyebrow
                “Lemme guess: The C is in math?” She nodded as we polished off our food.
                “Well, he’s not gonna bite, Ammy. Ask Justin for help or somebody. You know I’ll help you!”
                “I know…I’ve got a lot on my mind” She confessed as I tilted my head again, waiting for her to continue.
                “I’ve been…depressed lately. Maybe it’s because dad hasn’t been taking me on tour or something.”
                “Are you late?” I asked as her eyes widened
                “No! Justin and I use protection and I’m on the pill! Besides, my period just started” I nodded. Mine also just started. Being as close as we are, our periods always start at the same time and end at the same time.
                “Wanna go shopping downtown after school?” I asked as she grinned
                “You mean smarty pants is gonna be a normal teenager?!” She exclaimed, teasing
                “Shut the hell up, bitch!” I said as we both laughed.
                “I’m your bitch” She grinned
                “Damn right” I confirmed
                We shared another laugh as we left the cafeteria. The rest of the day went by in a blur as school got over. I had a ton of homework that I need to do tonight, plus I have work and hockey practice.
                “What time do you have practice tonight?” She asked as we pulled out of the parking lot
                “5. Coach moved it up because he has a sick kid at home”
I drove us to Cherry’s shop and managed to find a parking spot in front. We ran into Stella on the way in.
                “What are you two doing here? You’re not going into Midnight, are you?” She sneered, hands on her hips.
                Stella Stevenson. Her dad is the CEO of one of the banks here in town and her mom is a professor at one of the universities here in town. They live on Dallas Ave.
                “My aunt owns the shop, you bitch. Of course we are” With that said, Amber and I walked in. Stella not far behind.
                “Girls!” Cherry squealed, hugging us. Stella gapped, eyes wide. Cherry is a very famous designer and she has stores all over the country. Nobody has a bad thing to say about her or her clothes.
                “Whatcha got, Cher?” I asked as she took us over to the newest clothes.
                “I made this for you, Jinny!” She exclaimed, taking out an outfit. It was a red skirt with black print tights (end at the knee), a pair of black slouch buckle boots (end a little before the knee) and a red tank top with black shiny cross that goes up the side. It came with some shiny bracelets and a chocker and studded earrings.
                “Oh my god!” I grinned and hugged her.
                “Pick what you two want off the racks and bring it up.” She told us, going off to help a customer. We went and started browsing. Stella had an armful of outfits as we had our back to her, checking out some racks. We turned when he heard Stella gasp. We looked at what she was gasping at as I groaned. There, on the wall was a picture of me wearing some of the new fall outfits that I had modeled for a few weeks ago.
                “Damn, you’re a sexy beast!” Amber whistled, nudging me as I laughed.
                “You too!” With that, I pointed to the opposite wall where Amber was. We were at the same rack as Stella, arms full of oufits.
                “How can you afford all those? This is a high price shop” She sneered.
                “Unlike you, we earn our money, Barbie. I’ve heard that you’re a huge fan of Toby keith. That’s my dad. So back off!” Amber yelled as Stella looked surprised.
                With that, we went to the front.
                “Problem?” Cherry asked as we shrugged
                “That’s Stella” Amber growled
                “Oh yeah. That bitch who’s ben givin’ you shit, right?” She asked as we nodded.
                “Hoity Toity” I expressed in a high pitched voice as we laughed.
                “How often is she in here?” I asked
                “Every other week” cherry made a face
                “Bitch” Amber and I expressed in unison.
                We got our outfits and left. Smirking at a gapping Stella.
                We went to the bookshop across the street and separated (We dropped the bags off in the car). There, in the corner, was Frost.
                “FROST!” I squealed as she got up, grinned and hugged me tightly.
                Frost is one of my many older sisters. She’s a famous artist (Drawing) and jewelry maker and she works for and married Alex Sinclair. Frost is well known for her Interior Design and owns her own business here in town. Her jewelry has been in fashion run ways and almost everybody in the school wears her stuff.
                “How have you been?” She asked after we pulled back.
                “Good. You?”
                “Excellent! I’m on my lunch break”
                After talking with Frost for a while, Amber and I went to the bakery. JoHannah works here while she goes to school.
                “Hey Hanny!” We greeted as she laughed.
                “Hey, you two!” Hanny is a year or two older than we are. I looked at my phone.
                Another rule at the ranch is when a child reaches the age 16 they can have their own cell phone. If you’re younger than that, you use a pay phone.
                “I’ve gotta go” I informed them.
                “My mom is across the street” Amber stated as we left the bakery.
                Amber got her stuff as I left. I had practice until 6pm and then I work at 6.45 until 10pm. I work at Buffalo Wild Wings as a waitress and it’s a really fun job. I love it and my coworkers are just awesome. After hockey practice, I was exhausted. Coach ran us hard for our game on Friday. I showered and changed into my work clothes and drove off to Buffalo Wild Wings.
                Once I arrived home at 10:15, I showered again and sat and did my homework. I took out math first and I picked up the piece of paper that fell to the floor. It was my schedule. I looked at it.
1st: AP Biology
2nd: AP Human Anatomy and Physiology
3rd: AP European History
LUNCH
4th: Band
5th: AP Statistics
6th: AP Graphic Design
                I put it away in the top drawer of my desk and got to work on my homework. My laptop was booted up, my phone laying on my bed. When I was 10, Bruce got me a cat. I named her ‘Hulk’.

It was 4 in the morning when I finished my homework. I rubbed my eyes and yawned, grabbing another energy drink. God, I’m exhausted… Maybe an hour of sleep…I thought as I laid down, my alarm on.
                I woke up again an hour later and more tired than I was when I went to bed. It only seemed like five minutes. After doing my morning routine, I dragged myself downstairs for breakfast. I padded over to the fridge, grabbed an energy drink and a cookie before heading out to my truck.
                “Have a good day, baby” Bruce’s voice came from behind me as I turned, smiling. We kissed as I left for my truck. He followed.
                “Tony wanted me to give this to you” He said, handing me a CD. Thanking him, I climbed into my truck, started and put the heater on full blast. I left the ranch, playing the CD as “Shoot to Thrill” came out of the stereo.
                After arriving at Amber’s house, I had finished my 2nd energy drink. I honked the horn as she came out. Today she wore black sweatpants with a pair of red and black Nike shoes and a Rock Star sweater. I was wearing the same thing, only my shoes were green and I wore a long sleeved Fox racing shirt with a zip up sweater. Both our hair was in a side pony. Once she got in, I drove off.
                “I thought Friday was dress like a slob day” She asked, buckling up as I laughed.
                “Haven’t you heard? Thursday is the new Friday. Besides, Friday is pajama day!”
                When we got to school, it was buzzing more than usual. We parked, got our stuff and headed inside. We saw staff out in the halls, kids talking loudly…
                “Keith!” I hollered as I caught his attention. He walked over;
                “What happened?” I asked
                “A kid committed suicide last night.” He answered
                “Name?” Amber asked
                “Alyssa Jones”
                “Freshy?” I asked as he shook his head
                “Sophomore. Stella and her crew picked on her a lot”
                Oh. That’s why she sounded familiar. I had stopped Stella and her gang a few times.
                “Jin Rummy?” Keith asked, waving his hand in front of my face.
                “I’m fine”
                With that said, I walked to my locker, unloaded my stuff and went to AP Biology. We were going to finish our shark thing and do labs report on it. One of Stella’s friends was in this class. She didn’t say much, just kept to herself. Which didn’t name any sense?
                Once the final bell had rang, we put our books in the little cubby things under the lab tables (We didn’t have desks). I went over and grabbed mine and Ambers as everybody else grabbed theirs. I headed back over to our table (that we share with 3 other people).
                “You alright? You have circles under your eyes” She stated, concern in her voice.
                “Tired”
                “What’s up?” She asked
                “Had practice ‘til 6, got to work at 6.45, worked ‘til 10, stayed up ‘til 4 working on homework.” Was my robotic reply.
                “There’s a game tomorrow, too. Your coach gonna run you hard?” She asked
                “Always does”
                Mr. Johnson walked around our tables, answering questions we might have.”
                “Just a reminder that the study guides are due Monday. Test on Tuesday”
                “What study guides?” A kid asked
                “The ones I’m going to be passing out here shortly.
                “You have questions in your book that you need to answer also”
                With that said, he started passing around the thick study guide, along with a 3 page packet. I started to wake up more, to start getting hyper.
                “Ah. Catching your second wind, huh?” Amber chuckled as I nodded.
                AP Bio got over as I’m now in my AP Human Anat and Physiology class. First thing the teacher says when she walks into the class is:
                “Test!”
                The class groaned as we put away our notes and books. It was a 5 page test— we've covered a lot in this class so far—she said there would be questions on last week’s dissection. The test took the entire class period; as soon as everybody was done, the bell rang. No homework except reading and taking notes.
                Soon enough, lunch came as I put my stuff into my locker. Amber joined me a few minutes later.
                “Chinese buffet for lunch?” She asked as I nodded. We left the building as Stella stopped us. I was SO not in the mood for this.
                “Stay away from Keith. He’s mine” She sneered
                “Have him” Was all I said
                “Tell your slutty friend to stay away. I don’t wanna catch anything” she snarked, laughing as I snapped.
                “You’re the reason Alyssa killed herself. You’re nothing but a stuck up snobby bitch. You pick on others because it’s amusement for you. You control people because you know what it’s like to be bullied and controlled. Didn’t your older sister bully you around? You’re nothing but a damn loser and you pick and bully others because you need to feel better about yourself! You’re no better than the rest of us, Stella. I’m sick of your bullying. Do us all a favor and kill yourself. Maybe the world would be better off without you around. If you ever call my best friend a slut again, I won’t stop her from attacking you.” I yelled, finishing my rant. By this time, a crowd had formed. Stella looked at me, eyes wide and red in the face. She just put her nose in the air and stormed off, friends following. The crowd vanished, but a few people came up and told it was about time and a long time coming.
                Amber and I got to my truck as I leaned against the door, my glasses still on. I sometimes forget that they’re on my face.
                “You good to drive?” I asked as she nodded. We got our driver’s license at the same time. She’s a good driver and I trust her.
                “Let’s just have Subway” I murmured as she pulled into subway.
                God, I was tired. We got out as she locked it, both going inside and ordering and sitting down, eating.
                “How do you think you did on the Human A and P test?” I asked after swallowing my bite.
                “I think I did okay. I studied and stuff. You?” She asked
                “Well that’s good. I think I got an A”
                “That was amazing what you said to Stella. I thought you were gonna attack her!” Amber told me as I shrugged.
                “I was. I’m so sick of her hist!” I snapped, sighing
                “Sorry. I’m super tired. These energy drinks aren’t doing anything.”
                She shrugged as we finished eating. After throwing away our garbage, we headed back to school.
                “Hello?” I asked, answering my phone.
                “Where are you?” Keith’s voice sounded
                “On my way back to school. Why?” I asked
                “After your rant—which I congratulate you on—Stella called her dad and he called a meeting in the conference room. Your mom is here, waiting.” He explained.
                “This is bullshit!” I growled as we hung up.
                I told Amber what happened as we arrived back at school. She went to class as I went into the conference room. I found Stella, her dad, Michael, my mom, and Brian (principal. Old school buddy of mom’s from college). I sat next to my mother.
                “Did you threaten my daughter?” Michael asked me
                “No”
                “You said I should kill myself!” she wailed
                “That’s not a threat. If I threatened you, it would've been, ‘I’m going to kill you’. There IS a difference” I informed her.
                “You embarrassed my daughter” he informed me.
                “Your kids’ been harassing mine and my niece! She and her friends put harassing notes on my kids locker!” My mother snapped. Uh oh. She was getting pissed. Looked like she was getting ready to leave for tour, too. Run away…Run away…
                “Alyssa Jones killed herself because of you, Stella!” I yelled, everybody looking at her.
                “Did not!” She defended
                “Oh please! You think you’re so high and mighty. We all know it was you who put the laxatives in her milk at lunch a few weeks ago. How you spread rumors about her because you need to be in control. Oh? Didn’t daddy know?” I sneered, looking at Michael's shocked face as I continued.
                “Oh yeah. It’s tragic. Alyssa was a sophomore. Her parents found her hanging in her closet by her belt. She had been cutting herself…” I gripped my sweat pants, struggling against the tears as I looked back up at them.
                “Her little brother had just died of cancer a few days ago and now they have to bury another child.” I finished. Stella looked…Ashamed
                “You’re a monster, Stella. You’re self-absorbed and need to bully others to feel good about yourself”
                “I’ll take her home and deal with her.” He said in a controlled voice.
                We all stood as Stella and Michael left.
                “Go back to class, Jinger” Brian said as I left.
                I made it through the rest of the day without any problems. I had practice from 3 until 5, work at 6 until 10. I had Friday and the weekend off. Which I was grateful for. After coming home from work, I went upstairs and did my homework. It was 3 in the morning before I passed out after realizing tomorrow is payday. Which means, times to pay bills. I have insurance, cell phone bill, and I’m paying mom back for buying my flute and I’m paying dad back for the parts I needed for my truck. Oh well. It’s totally worth it!